Going to Jump Ship and Swim
I had another weird dream last night. This time it was a scary dream. This guy who looked a lot like Jim Carrey attacked me but I fought him off and tried to tie him up with this yellow rope but he got out of it and tied me up. I couldn't get out of it and then he was going to rape me but I woke up. Slightly disturbing.
I hung out with Kelli today. For 10 hours. And I STILL DIDNT KISS HER! I dont know whats wrong with me! I even told her I was shy and gave hints that I wanted to kiss her. I told her last week that I wanted to kiss her. I was so going to tonight when we were saying goodbye but she pulled away from our goodbye hug too quickly. Not much I could do about it. Damn damn damn. I think I should just give up. Shouldn't this kind of thing come naturally? With everyone else I've dated, it came very naturally. I mean, hell, Rosie and I went from becoming friends to sleeping together in less than 24 hours. I've been hanging out with Kelli for almost a month now. Ugh! Girls. So complicated. She did say something about how she's taking a break from relationships. She doesn't want the drama. I don't either. I'm not big on drama. So I dont know. Pfft. Why are girls so complicated? AAAGGHHH
Ok right. So then. I'm off to bed.