i don know what to feel anymore

[uncommonlaw]

i feel like i have lost my best friend. i feel like i have lost the thing that gave me a reason to wake up in the morning. that made me want to better myself, and try and be a better person. i feel like ive lost the person that showed me god truly exists. i feel like this is a good thing. i feel like this is the start of something big. i feel like this is the end of everything. the end of the world. i feel like i want to talk to her. i feel like i never want to talk to her again. i feel like shes falling for him. i feel like shes falling away from me. i feel like i want to curl up in a ball and cry. i feel like i want to get out and forget everything. i feel like ill never make the same mistakes again. i feel that ill never even have the chance to make those mistakes again. i feel like she still cares. i feel like she doesnt care at all. i feel like things will never be the same. i feel hope. i feel fear. i feel time is a good thing. i feel time will end it all. i feel like ill get another chance. i feel like ill never get a chance again. i feel like things are awkward now, but that they shouldnt be. i feel like theres something i dont know. i feel like i know too much. i feel like i dont have anyone to go to. i feel like giving up. i feel like holding on. i feel like running away. i feel like waiting.

but the thing that i feel most....is her...in my heart