Fuck work! Fuck furniture!
Wow! I haven't been on here in months. I think I even forgot how to use Livejournal.
A lot has happened:
1. Today is my last day at the job I've had for almost four years. It turns out being a produce manager at a co-op is NOT my dream job. My soul wants something else.
2. I'm moving out of my house in a week.
3. I'm getting in my car and going. Low budget road trip style.
4. My rabbit has a new family.
5. My boyfriend is staying here and doing important school things. I want to be with him, but I also want to go find what I want to do, rather than be here stagnating and stressing and not loving my life. In fact, not only have I not been loving my life, I have become a freaking zombie who loses touch with everyone and hardly ever leaves Ames and is always tired and cranky.
6. I got in here for next July. I want to visit and see if it's for me.
7. I do want a career that is meaningful to me. But right now I am so burned out all I want to do is drive off the edge of existance, screaming. And maybe eating something really full of trans fats and corn syrup while I'm doing it, to celebrate not working at a health food store anymore.
I read awhile ago that someone has a theory that you can only have, at most, two of the following things at the same time: a great house/apartment, a great significant other and a great job.
This seems to ring true for me. And I think I am now ready to downsize and only have one of these things for awhile. Jobs and houses are overrated. Fuck work! Fuck furniture!
A lot has happened:
1. Today is my last day at the job I've had for almost four years. It turns out being a produce manager at a co-op is NOT my dream job. My soul wants something else.
2. I'm moving out of my house in a week.
3. I'm getting in my car and going. Low budget road trip style.
4. My rabbit has a new family.
5. My boyfriend is staying here and doing important school things. I want to be with him, but I also want to go find what I want to do, rather than be here stagnating and stressing and not loving my life. In fact, not only have I not been loving my life, I have become a freaking zombie who loses touch with everyone and hardly ever leaves Ames and is always tired and cranky.
6. I got in here for next July. I want to visit and see if it's for me.
7. I do want a career that is meaningful to me. But right now I am so burned out all I want to do is drive off the edge of existance, screaming. And maybe eating something really full of trans fats and corn syrup while I'm doing it, to celebrate not working at a health food store anymore.
I read awhile ago that someone has a theory that you can only have, at most, two of the following things at the same time: a great house/apartment, a great significant other and a great job.
This seems to ring true for me. And I think I am now ready to downsize and only have one of these things for awhile. Jobs and houses are overrated. Fuck work! Fuck furniture!