I'm on drugs
Yep. . .you read correctly, I am on drugs; specifically the brand name drug "Paxil" which is basically paroxetine hydrochloride. It is said to adjust my brain chemistry in a fun and safe way!! Sure there might be a few side effects, but this is only 2004, not 2504. Medical science has only gotten so far. As far as I know, paxil is likely to help more so than harm me. I just took my first controlled-release 25 mg tablet about 30 min. ago, and I can't say that I feel much different. I don't feel nauseous, dizzy, or drowsy. I don't seem to have any diarrhea and I'm not having any suicidal thoughts. I'll go ahead and take this as a good sign. Part of my road to recovery is optimism. There is probably some validity in that whole concept of psychosomatism: the idea that the beliefs/outlook of the patient impact their health and recuperation. According to those adhering to this view, if one believes sincerely that they will recover, this increases the likelihood of that actually happening. This is also known as the placebo effect. So thus, to be safe, I endeavor to maintain a positive outlook.
To be honest, this Wednesday was tough for me. I didn't feel REALLY bad, but I did feel more tense than I had been feeling. I think I caught some sort of illness, as I have been experiencing some gastric distress. November was a good month for me. I felt like my anxiety was really losing its grip on me. I began feeling more and more like my old self. December has been pretty good to me as well thus far, with the exception of this Wednesday. I view this as a minor obstacle however, and think that I will have a better day tomorrow.
To be honest, this Wednesday was tough for me. I didn't feel REALLY bad, but I did feel more tense than I had been feeling. I think I caught some sort of illness, as I have been experiencing some gastric distress. November was a good month for me. I felt like my anxiety was really losing its grip on me. I began feeling more and more like my old self. December has been pretty good to me as well thus far, with the exception of this Wednesday. I view this as a minor obstacle however, and think that I will have a better day tomorrow.