christmas is almost here
Dear Santa,
This year has been really crazy for me, i've made more than one persons share of mistakes and i can honestly say i dont even know who i am anymore.. i'm completely and utterly lost and i've fucked up just about every aspect of my life pretty bad.. i'm beginning to work on it but i need a little more help than i've been willing to accept from certain people like my parents.. it's not that i dont think they can help me, its just that i've been stubborn and assumed i could do everything by myself.. and i failed and now i'm too embarrassed to tell them .. maybe i'll get the courage to do it soon .. i hope.
But this year i want something different .. for christmas i want the following:
1) i want people to call me just to talk, to see how i'm doing and to catch up and not let our relationships fall apart, and i promise i'll start doing this too... i want consideration to be shown to me because i know i used to be extremely thoughtful and its hard to be when no one else is...i'm not just blaming other people cuz its my fault as well.
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5) i want to be stronger, make better decisions and learn the meaning of tact.
6) i want my imagination back .. i want to be creative and silly, i want to be a silly/cheest romantic and i dont want to so caught up in being a grown up that i cant have fun like a little kid.
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8) i want to be given a second chance with college and keep the motivation to do good and not slack off.
9) i want atleast half of this stuff, if not all of it, to come true.
10) lastly, i want perfect teeth, 20/20 vision and a bank account with unlimited funds for reconstructive surgery.
Santa, if you cant do that last one i completely understand... I know i would normally be asking you for material things but i swear if i get what i asked for this year i would be the happiest boy come christmas day... i dont need anything else because i have everything a boy could want and some stuff i dont even know what to do with... this christmas needs to be special, please.
Beyond Sincerely,
Ant
This year has been really crazy for me, i've made more than one persons share of mistakes and i can honestly say i dont even know who i am anymore.. i'm completely and utterly lost and i've fucked up just about every aspect of my life pretty bad.. i'm beginning to work on it but i need a little more help than i've been willing to accept from certain people like my parents.. it's not that i dont think they can help me, its just that i've been stubborn and assumed i could do everything by myself.. and i failed and now i'm too embarrassed to tell them .. maybe i'll get the courage to do it soon .. i hope.
But this year i want something different .. for christmas i want the following:
1) i want people to call me just to talk, to see how i'm doing and to catch up and not let our relationships fall apart, and i promise i'll start doing this too... i want consideration to be shown to me because i know i used to be extremely thoughtful and its hard to be when no one else is...i'm not just blaming other people cuz its my fault as well.
2) .
3) .
4) .
5) i want to be stronger, make better decisions and learn the meaning of tact.
6) i want my imagination back .. i want to be creative and silly, i want to be a silly/cheest romantic and i dont want to so caught up in being a grown up that i cant have fun like a little kid.
7) .
8) i want to be given a second chance with college and keep the motivation to do good and not slack off.
9) i want atleast half of this stuff, if not all of it, to come true.
10) lastly, i want perfect teeth, 20/20 vision and a bank account with unlimited funds for reconstructive surgery.
Santa, if you cant do that last one i completely understand... I know i would normally be asking you for material things but i swear if i get what i asked for this year i would be the happiest boy come christmas day... i dont need anything else because i have everything a boy could want and some stuff i dont even know what to do with... this christmas needs to be special, please.
Beyond Sincerely,
Ant