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a force greater than i’ve felt thus far pulled me out
outside into the same back yard i’ve said prayers,
cried for hours on a cold cement floor,
made love in,
seen life pass in,
danced in the rain while watching the rainbow appear,
and the spot where i fell inlove with the sky.
its always been there for me
it's my holy ground
my mosque, my church, my temple
my spirituality grew in this beautiful green rectangle in the middle of the desert
.....I grew
as i'm stripped of all negative energies which have been quite hard to hide from for the past few days i am able to connect
connect with the breathtaking nature surrounding me
we are both out of place in our surroundings yet feel so perfect at this moment
i see their energy, i feel their energy
i willingly surrender mine to them
and we are ONE
we become one
its been exactly a year.
a year TO DAY.
feburary 5th, a day my life was turned upside down
i’ve been a different person for a year now
a year ago i felt the same force pull me towards
towards something less genuine but in need of love
.....not willing to return and share the love
no concept of oneness
a year ago i lost myself in this ungenuine force
a year from that day i stand in my garden, my holly garden
surrounding and protecting me with every fiber of its existence
i stand here in thankfulness for everything that's happened to me
even the times that hurt
i am thankful
today its been exactly a year and i didn’t know it for the date
i knew it from the energies that surrounded me
the energies that surrounded me with the warmest safe feeling i've ever felt
in a year you helped me
you helped me learn the most sacred thing
protection of self
a holly ego
a safe ego
i will always be thankful for you
i will always remember you
your pure, genuine energy you give to me and i have learnt to give in return
to become ONE