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I always post around this time I've realized. And it's always a really bad, sad, upset post.
I hate February. February is an awful month. First there is Valentine's Day then a week later is my birthday. I'll be 22..what a horrendous age =(
I've also realized that people get freaked out during February...especially that damn Hallmark holiday. I get nervous but also excited, especially if I'm seeing someone. And I was seeing someone, someone who I thought was really special that I had feelings for I never felt before. Of course, since I'm apparently an alcoholic and all, I ruined things. I let him take me out to suchhh a nice place, spend lots of money on me, then I decide to act like a drunken idiot and go to a bar with a friend right after. I went back to his apartment of course, but I don't even know what happened. Last night I tried to make it up to him and possibly made it even worse, but I don't even remember.
I'm quitting drinking. I swear.
My friends are throwing me a birthday kegger the weekend before my birthday but I think I might want to cancel that as well, I'm just not in the mood to celebrate anything anymore.
I hate February. February is an awful month. First there is Valentine's Day then a week later is my birthday. I'll be 22..what a horrendous age =(
I've also realized that people get freaked out during February...especially that damn Hallmark holiday. I get nervous but also excited, especially if I'm seeing someone. And I was seeing someone, someone who I thought was really special that I had feelings for I never felt before. Of course, since I'm apparently an alcoholic and all, I ruined things. I let him take me out to suchhh a nice place, spend lots of money on me, then I decide to act like a drunken idiot and go to a bar with a friend right after. I went back to his apartment of course, but I don't even know what happened. Last night I tried to make it up to him and possibly made it even worse, but I don't even remember.
I'm quitting drinking. I swear.
My friends are throwing me a birthday kegger the weekend before my birthday but I think I might want to cancel that as well, I'm just not in the mood to celebrate anything anymore.