I wanna see the room fall from beneath my feet so I can prove you swept me off my feet...
So. Last night was nothing (ok, a few things) short of amazing.
Yesterday was my college's Homecoming... the football game was fun (I'm in the marching band -- drumline! yay) and we did extremely well with the show and overall playing (the football team won by a lot, too). Our band director even said that this year's bass drum line (which is what I play) is the best they've ever had. :D Major happiness. One bad thing about all the drumming was the blisters I got on my hands and that my fingers and arms were sorta sore. After that, I went to dinner with my aunt, grandma, and daddy *g* And it was delicious and I even have leftovers that I'll probably heat up today. After that, I hung out in my room for a while... then smoked (so crucify me) and went to this concert with some on-campus bands and 2 bands that have on campus people and off campus people. My roommate noticed that every time I sober up after getting high, that I am extremely outgoing... and it was very true last night.
The first band was pretty good and has a couple of my really good friends in it. No one was really getting into it, but there's a whole issue a lot of people have with 2 of the guys in the band who compared themselves to Paul McCartney (is that how you spell it??) and John Lennon (at least I think that's who they compared themselves to) and they kinda bashed the other on-campus band. ANYWAYS. I think they're both really good.
NEXT, was a band that had two of the members of drumline in it, one for whom I am developing a huge crush (even though I have a boyfriend... I know, I know... bad news. I've reprimanded myself for it enough). Anyways... they dedicated one of their songs (a cover of Billie Jean) to my roommate and I because the guy I have a crush on has an amazing singing voice, but he's shy about it and we tried to get him to sing a song for us and he wouldn't so we told him he should dedicate a song to us. And he did. However, my roommate and I definitely got some dirty looks from some of their friends that don't go to this school after he said the song was dedicated to us... Jerks. (lol, just kidding)
AND THEN the third band was this seriously heavy metal band (the one guy I know from the band is a guy I talk about Rammstein with because he really likes them too) and this is when stuff seriously started to get crazy. there was moshing and "hardcore dancing" and I definitely got in on the moshing.. I got pretty banged up, but the only really bad part was when I got pushed down and landed on my ass... more specifically my cell phone, which was in my back pocket. I definitely got a huge bruise from that, but I kept soldiering on! the band was good and I had lots of fun with that one
the last band was my other group of friends' band (who are the ones who hate the first band) and they were awesome as well. I did even more moshing and just general rocking out. my roommate did one song with them (Buried a Lie by Senses Fail) and it was really good.
After the concert, there was a dance and I hung out for a little bit, but there weren't many people there. I danced around with people and it was lots of fun... I'm pretty sure a lot of people thought I was drunk or at least tipsy, but I didn't drink at all last night. At this point, I went back to the room to talk to my boyfriend, but he I couldn't get a hold of him.... so I smoked again (yeah, yeah..) and went and hung out with my roommate and her boyfriend who had drove up from another college and they were drinking with some friends in the last band and some other people. at one point I got handcuffed to a bed with fuzzy handcuffs and tickled by my roommate's boyfriend. and I handcuffed myself to my roommate, and then one of my good friends that has the same major as me. Overall, that was a lot of fun. After that, we went to the apartments on campus, and hung out with two more members of the third band and the last band... we listened to some Rammstein... then I got hit on by a guy who goes to another college... I made sure he knew I had a boyfriend though, and he just kinda chatted after that. nothing really exciting happened there, and I went back to the room and went to bed.
Overall, I had a really good time... but of course the other side of it is that it makes me think about breaking up with my boyfriend because he is so far away and the whole reason I didn't drink last night was because he told me I can't drink with boys around. he is really jealous, and really insecure and thinks I'm going to cheat on him. which is ridiculous because we've been together for THREE YEARS as of Friday. Ok, I know I said I had a crush on another guy, but I would never act on it unless I was no longer with my boyfriend. I kind just want some freedom to do whatever I want while I'm here and not have to worry about the boy back home. Of course, the other side of that is that I am completely in love with my boyfriend and have even thought seriously about marrying him. I love being with him, but the hard part comes when I'm up here at college and he's back home. I know if I do break up with him that it won't be any time soon because I'm going home this next weekend and the weekend after that... and the fact that I might have an internship at home next semester, and then I'll be home all summer... so I don't want to break up with him and then be heartbroken at home when I could be with him still. Part of me is trying to find a way to tell him that I want to take a break until I get home in December, but I know he won't like that, because he thinks "taking a break" means "finding a new boyfriend" which is definitely not the case. I just want to do whatever I want to do without having to worry about him. which I think is pretty selfish of me and hence why I really don't think I'm going to break up with him anytime soon.
*deep breath*
One thing I do know, however, is that I need to be really careful with this guy I have a crush on, because every day I see him, I like him a little bit more.... and I see him a lot. And we hang out because we're good friends. And I don't want to ruin my chances to be with my boyfriend forever by having a crush that could just turn out to be nothing. Ugh. This just feels like a repeat from last year. *bangs head into desk* I don't think I'll ever learn.
So.... that was really long. And I am pretty sore from all the craziness
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Yesterday was my college's Homecoming... the football game was fun (I'm in the marching band -- drumline! yay) and we did extremely well with the show and overall playing (the football team won by a lot, too). Our band director even said that this year's bass drum line (which is what I play) is the best they've ever had. :D Major happiness. One bad thing about all the drumming was the blisters I got on my hands and that my fingers and arms were sorta sore. After that, I went to dinner with my aunt, grandma, and daddy *g* And it was delicious and I even have leftovers that I'll probably heat up today. After that, I hung out in my room for a while... then smoked (so crucify me) and went to this concert with some on-campus bands and 2 bands that have on campus people and off campus people. My roommate noticed that every time I sober up after getting high, that I am extremely outgoing... and it was very true last night.
The first band was pretty good and has a couple of my really good friends in it. No one was really getting into it, but there's a whole issue a lot of people have with 2 of the guys in the band who compared themselves to Paul McCartney (is that how you spell it??) and John Lennon (at least I think that's who they compared themselves to) and they kinda bashed the other on-campus band. ANYWAYS. I think they're both really good.
NEXT, was a band that had two of the members of drumline in it, one for whom I am developing a huge crush (even though I have a boyfriend... I know, I know... bad news. I've reprimanded myself for it enough). Anyways... they dedicated one of their songs (a cover of Billie Jean) to my roommate and I because the guy I have a crush on has an amazing singing voice, but he's shy about it and we tried to get him to sing a song for us and he wouldn't so we told him he should dedicate a song to us. And he did. However, my roommate and I definitely got some dirty looks from some of their friends that don't go to this school after he said the song was dedicated to us... Jerks. (lol, just kidding)
AND THEN the third band was this seriously heavy metal band (the one guy I know from the band is a guy I talk about Rammstein with because he really likes them too) and this is when stuff seriously started to get crazy. there was moshing and "hardcore dancing" and I definitely got in on the moshing.. I got pretty banged up, but the only really bad part was when I got pushed down and landed on my ass... more specifically my cell phone, which was in my back pocket. I definitely got a huge bruise from that, but I kept soldiering on! the band was good and I had lots of fun with that one
the last band was my other group of friends' band (who are the ones who hate the first band) and they were awesome as well. I did even more moshing and just general rocking out. my roommate did one song with them (Buried a Lie by Senses Fail) and it was really good.
After the concert, there was a dance and I hung out for a little bit, but there weren't many people there. I danced around with people and it was lots of fun... I'm pretty sure a lot of people thought I was drunk or at least tipsy, but I didn't drink at all last night. At this point, I went back to the room to talk to my boyfriend, but he I couldn't get a hold of him.... so I smoked again (yeah, yeah..) and went and hung out with my roommate and her boyfriend who had drove up from another college and they were drinking with some friends in the last band and some other people. at one point I got handcuffed to a bed with fuzzy handcuffs and tickled by my roommate's boyfriend. and I handcuffed myself to my roommate, and then one of my good friends that has the same major as me. Overall, that was a lot of fun. After that, we went to the apartments on campus, and hung out with two more members of the third band and the last band... we listened to some Rammstein... then I got hit on by a guy who goes to another college... I made sure he knew I had a boyfriend though, and he just kinda chatted after that. nothing really exciting happened there, and I went back to the room and went to bed.
Overall, I had a really good time... but of course the other side of it is that it makes me think about breaking up with my boyfriend because he is so far away and the whole reason I didn't drink last night was because he told me I can't drink with boys around. he is really jealous, and really insecure and thinks I'm going to cheat on him. which is ridiculous because we've been together for THREE YEARS as of Friday. Ok, I know I said I had a crush on another guy, but I would never act on it unless I was no longer with my boyfriend. I kind just want some freedom to do whatever I want while I'm here and not have to worry about the boy back home. Of course, the other side of that is that I am completely in love with my boyfriend and have even thought seriously about marrying him. I love being with him, but the hard part comes when I'm up here at college and he's back home. I know if I do break up with him that it won't be any time soon because I'm going home this next weekend and the weekend after that... and the fact that I might have an internship at home next semester, and then I'll be home all summer... so I don't want to break up with him and then be heartbroken at home when I could be with him still. Part of me is trying to find a way to tell him that I want to take a break until I get home in December, but I know he won't like that, because he thinks "taking a break" means "finding a new boyfriend" which is definitely not the case. I just want to do whatever I want to do without having to worry about him. which I think is pretty selfish of me and hence why I really don't think I'm going to break up with him anytime soon.
*deep breath*
One thing I do know, however, is that I need to be really careful with this guy I have a crush on, because every day I see him, I like him a little bit more.... and I see him a lot. And we hang out because we're good friends. And I don't want to ruin my chances to be with my boyfriend forever by having a crush that could just turn out to be nothing. Ugh. This just feels like a repeat from last year. *bangs head into desk* I don't think I'll ever learn.
So.... that was really long. And I am pretty sore from all the craziness
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