I did it again
Im not really understanding what kind of pull i have on girls. To be honest, i have a really hard time getting girls to give me a chance in the first place, but it seems that when they do, they go nuts over me. My last girlfriend Shayna, i dated for about 6 months off and on, but after about the first week, she was hooked to me i guess. She was already talking to me about private things things that she had never discussed with anybody else, which i suppose is a good point of being her boyfriend, but she was also talking about having kids and being married to me. It was obviously too early for her to be seeing someone at that level of seriousness at such a young age, but now, im seeing Angel. I'm not officially dating her, because she is engaged to someone else. It's kinda bad for her to be seing someone while being engaged but i should let you know, we were originally only friends, im actually friends with her Fiance, that is how i met her. It was in his interest that we started hanging out more often because he wanted her to be friends with his friends as well, but at somepoint in visiting her, everything changed. I don't really know what i did taht was so overwhelmingly special, but from what ive come to understand is that my personal charm is unlike anything she has experianced before. Apperently she has typically only been attracted to Gentleman with the physique of Tall and Musclular, and on the Darker scale of the light spectrum. Me on the other hand, well, im none of those. So she doesn't understand what it is, but obviously its me. The only thing i can thing i can understand is my personality. Im Mr. Nice Guy, and i don't think she is used to that at all. Last week when i was seen her, she was ill and i brought her over medication, apperently, everyone else has always just tried to say something like, "well, i know an old indian cure for that, lets go fuck."...so this is where im different of course, because its not about that with me. But yesterday i spent from 4 o'clock until 11 o'clock with her, most of it at my house and we did alot of talking, and some other things. She seems so confused on what to do, i know for a fact, that she really wants to be with me, but still wants JD in her life, she says she really doesn't look at him in a true love type of way, but more like a big brother. She's telling me that lately ive had her stomach in knots, she has never felt this way about anybody like me before, nor this strongly. And on top of that, im starting to see a hidden underside to her that im really attracted to. I can tell that some of the way she acts on the outside, is from years of being around people that want nothing to do with a spiritual relationship, but just want sex. She slowly peeling apart for me though and im really seeing a beautiful flower blooming within her. At first i was kinda worried because i thought that maybe we really didn't have too much in common but a sexual drive, and an attractivness to her personality, but now i see we do, and I think there is just alot of things that she might be interested in if she was only introduced to it in the proper way. But either way, im also the type of person, i really like doing almost everything from Weightlifting, Fourwheeling, and Skydiving, to Painting, romantic beach trips, and Nature Walks. From playing games to doing business, im a Jack of a Trade, and i like to entertain myself in that same fasion.