-Next week I'm going to an info session about the
Columbia University post-bac, pre-med program.
-Later that night, I'm going to the
Bang on a Can Peoples' Commission concert at Merkin Hall. Hopefully some new music will inspire me out of my present lack of enthusiasm for my chosen career.
-Next week I'm also going down to Princeton to record some arias for a competition. I hate the arias. I think music like this has no artistic value other than as an exercise in egotism for the singer. I usually don't do competitions because people who sing crap like this are usually the people who win. Doing music I don't believe in is draining.
-I start Russian lessons soon.
-Last night I met some cool kids from Juilliard (some who graduated, some who go there, some who teach there) who are in charge of a concert series that sounds pretty cool. They checked out my website and emailed me today and were like, "Yeah, come work with us." That's cool I guess. They seem to do a lot of new music and contemporary stuff on the series. And one of them has a brother doing immunology research at Hopkins. And his wife is a mathematician. He thinks I should meet them both. Maybe if I find enough people like that, I can get them all together and we can develope a whole new field of research.
-I'm finalizing plans to visit my uncle and aunt and watch how research goes down at Yale.
-I've been invited down to Miami for something music-related but I'm not sure if the invitation may have come because of something non-music related. I'm leery and pessimistic.
-My insecurities are strangling me. In music, love, and everything else. I have lost my ability to trust anyone with my heart.