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I'm sick of everything these days. I'm sick of not knowing what to do. I'm sick nothing happening and everything happening at the same time. I'm sick of being at a loss for words. I'm sick of having no confidence. I'm sick of people walking all over me. I'm sick of not being able to say how I feel. I'm sick of people interpretting my life and the things I do. I'm sick of being unhealthy and out of shape. I'm sick of seeing loved ones fail at school, work, relationships, and life in general. I'm sick of not having the money to do what I want. I'm sick of being afraid. I'm sick of bugs. I'm sick of not being able to see my friends and family. I'm sick of being in this small room wiht nothing to do. I'm sick of forgetting my ideas before I have the chance to write them down. I'm sick of the person in the room above me making noises when I'm trying to sleep, but being perfectly silent mid-day. I'm sick of acting like a jackass. I'm sick of being lonely. I'm sick of putting on a facade that says "I'm ok," 24/7. I'm sick of feeling like this isn't my body. I'm sick of processed food. I'm sick of bottling up all of these emotions untill I snap. I'm sick of having to dodge other cars while I'm driving because some asshole didn't feel like looking first. I'm sick of not knowing what to do.

But most of all.... I'm sick of being sick.

Sorry. I just needed to vent to someone or something... I feel much better now.