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[unbearabletears]

I started hearing them again on Thusday.

The doctor told me to take an Abien and go to bed.

So I have.. everynight .

I am so tired of being sick . I wish everything would just go back to the way it was. I wish I could go back to when I was who I know I am . The girl that loved life, and eveyrthing about life, and everyone .

I don't even want to leave my house or my room much less love anything .

I know this is not who I am . I know it in the bottom of my heart.

On another note. I am going to start working more hours at work . I am excited I guess. I just hope that I can handle it and going to school at the same time . I am not even sure that I can handle going to school . I mean . I don't even want to do what I am dsoing now . much less do anything more .

But I don't have a choice I have to keep going . I have to keep doing what I am doing . I have to . I just do . no one is going to do it for me , and no one is going to do my work for me , and I don't expect them to .

and if there's one thing that I know it's that best to let it roll
so just let it roll .
Let it roll