What My Thoughts choose.
So the past month or so I have felt down and out about my relationship with Jason and have felt it progessively getting worse. I could go into specifics but I just don't think it would serve a purpose because the truth is I am a strong believer of "The Secret" and sometimes its hard to realize when you are allowing your thoughts to lead you into a downward spiral. So when I went to Jason ready to call it quits and give up on our relationship I thought it was what I wanted until Jason agreed we should just be friends and then I realized that's not really what I wanted. Because then I realized all the things I would be losing that I love about Jason, how he's funny, smart, caring, dedicated, silly and tickles me and tries to cook for me and how when we are around so many other people it some how feels like it's just me and him. So this past week I have just been thinking about how much he really makes me happy and not when he doesn't and now I feel free. All this time I thought I was judging him for our problems but in reality I was really judging myself and now that I have let those judgments go I feel like I'm getting my relationship back. I also am finally getting paid by the insurance company and should get the check by next week in the mail and I am going to go take my test the get my license and then apply for a cruise line job. I feel like things are only going to continue to just fall into place and take me where I want to go. I allow what I want to be created through my thoughts.