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so I met this guy on new years..he was totally awesome and super nice..and for some reason I could not get him out of my head..I mean I'm not going to lie, I drank a bit too much and I don't really remember the last few hours of the night and I know I was hanging out with him and my cousin most of the night but I don't know what happened in those few hours..I wonder if he said something to me or did something because he made a big impact on me somehow...he just seems like an excellent person that I would love to get to know....& guess what??? He found me on myspace...I'm ecstatic!!! I dunno, this could be the start to something good...I just hope I don't mess things up..
Today was my day off work, I got to sleep in..it was amazing but I slept too much..I wanted to wake up earlier and go bike riding all day but that didn't work out..I didn't finish getting ready til about 4...a little too late to go too far so I just rode my bike to my work,its a grind...I'm still here just hanging out, relaxing and thinking..
I have found myself to be alone a lot lately...sometimes I really like it and sometimes it bothers me...whenever I slow down for a while and get to thinking about my life, I get kind of depressed and I don't know why..like my life isn't so bad, I shouldn't be depressed..I have a lot of good things going for me, I have an excellent family, I'm not homeless, I have friends, I have a job and I'm finished with school... I'm just in an inbetween point in my life...I just have no motivation to get started...all I have to do is take a test to get my cosmetology license then I can start my career...start my life..but why haven't I done it?? Who knows..
I'm hoping that once I get out of this rut I'm in then things will start looking up for me..once I stop feeling numb and not caring about anything...that is one of the things that I want to work on..I want to work on caring and loving more..I want to be more intentional with my time and relationships...I don't want to hang out with people just to hang out because I have nothing else better to do...I want our time to be meaningful not something to pass the time..
Ahh..there is so much going on in my head right now..I need a release..I need an escape right now..
I need love..where is the man of my dreams?? Come rescue me!!!!
Today was my day off work, I got to sleep in..it was amazing but I slept too much..I wanted to wake up earlier and go bike riding all day but that didn't work out..I didn't finish getting ready til about 4...a little too late to go too far so I just rode my bike to my work,its a grind...I'm still here just hanging out, relaxing and thinking..
I have found myself to be alone a lot lately...sometimes I really like it and sometimes it bothers me...whenever I slow down for a while and get to thinking about my life, I get kind of depressed and I don't know why..like my life isn't so bad, I shouldn't be depressed..I have a lot of good things going for me, I have an excellent family, I'm not homeless, I have friends, I have a job and I'm finished with school... I'm just in an inbetween point in my life...I just have no motivation to get started...all I have to do is take a test to get my cosmetology license then I can start my career...start my life..but why haven't I done it?? Who knows..
I'm hoping that once I get out of this rut I'm in then things will start looking up for me..once I stop feeling numb and not caring about anything...that is one of the things that I want to work on..I want to work on caring and loving more..I want to be more intentional with my time and relationships...I don't want to hang out with people just to hang out because I have nothing else better to do...I want our time to be meaningful not something to pass the time..
Ahh..there is so much going on in my head right now..I need a release..I need an escape right now..
I need love..where is the man of my dreams?? Come rescue me!!!!