Damn that Eternal Sunshine.
For some reason unbeknownst to me, I feel detached right at this very moment. I could sit here and blame it on the fact that I just watched one of those movies where you leave feeling a little bit left behind, like an old toy thrown away for the new and improved one, but I have come to the conclusion that every once in a while I always have this stirring thought in my mind.
I'm scared.
Am I doing enough?
Am I doing my best?
Am I doing the things I truly believe in, or am I just following some predisposed path that I'm going to get trapped on?
Do I make myself clear enough?
Is everything I do bordering lost causes?
I need some comfort.
Actually, I need to know that I can BE comforted. I need to know for myself that people can be reliable, that I'm not crazy when I say I value trust and dedication. That there's good, and that I'm welcome to be a part of that.
I know that it's around me, and I'm just being picky. I've always wanted only the best for myself, though.
I hope it's not too much to ask...
Because god knows I'd be extremely miserable if I ever knew that my wishes could never be fulfilled. Jeeze. It would be horrible.
P.S.
I don't feel so lost in those few moments.
I'm scared.
Am I doing enough?
Am I doing my best?
Am I doing the things I truly believe in, or am I just following some predisposed path that I'm going to get trapped on?
Do I make myself clear enough?
Is everything I do bordering lost causes?
I need some comfort.
Actually, I need to know that I can BE comforted. I need to know for myself that people can be reliable, that I'm not crazy when I say I value trust and dedication. That there's good, and that I'm welcome to be a part of that.
I know that it's around me, and I'm just being picky. I've always wanted only the best for myself, though.
I hope it's not too much to ask...
Because god knows I'd be extremely miserable if I ever knew that my wishes could never be fulfilled. Jeeze. It would be horrible.
P.S.
I don't feel so lost in those few moments.