May 11, 2004 10:22
a feeling of numbness overcomes my entire body, realizing the fact this is all happening.weve been through so much.
we lay with our warm bodies intertwined,laughing,tickeling each other.taking pictures on your camera phone.playing songs on the guitar for each other.everything stops.everything is so still.like were in a live picture. we can almost hear the seconds tick from the clock on the wall.we cant stop smiling, as we stare into each others eyes. into our souls, we see one another, not by apperance.but depth.my arm got goosebumps when you caressed me, and butterflies overcame me.the feeling we got at this very moment cant be explained. we laid kissing each other, laughing, holding and touching each other.im still smiling walking home from your house.i cant esplain it, but it was just one of those moments.
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when you walked into my life
misery in disguise
i should have seen the pain coming
but it hid behind your eyes
with every loving look you gave me
should have known you would betray me
and now i begin to bleed
b/c youre the one i need.
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i couldnt sleep last night. my makeup ran this morning while i listened to our song on repeat.
over and over.
why?
during first period the projector blocked a very "attractive" T.A.
my day was ok after that.im kinda glad youre not here today. i dont know what i would have done if i saw you. if our eyes met. i think my body would have been stripped of emotion and senses.i wouldnt be able to continue walking or say anything. just stare.cal your my everything.my eyes are puffy today b/c of you. but youre SINGLE. thats all the matters right? that youre happy.
the only thing i would say when you release me from your embrace would be " you dont know how happy i am to be with you".
but when will i ever have this chance again?why are we doing this? i just want you to hold me in your arms and kiss me and tell me we'll never fight again, never go through this again...