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Today I got to spend time with Luke, and it made the day a little better. My mom yelled at me non-stop all day. She really want's me out of here now. I can't take her crap really anymore, it just magnifies the rest of my stress. I took M off of here, since I don't think she really want's anything much to do with me anymore, it sucks, I know college has totally ruined the way we used to be. I'm hurt, I miss having friends to confide in. I feel so alone lately. I have these constant worries in my head non-stop and it makes daily things so difficult.
I'm going to talk to my grandma about moving in the apartment upstairs. I know it's more wishful thinking than anything but she needs some help and I need some space. I can't take much more of this.
I had a talk with Jackie online tonight about somethings and it really helped having someone to talk to, I felt more comfortable bringing up stuff with her that I don't think I could say to anyone else.
I make 3 dollars for sure so far, and I have about 20-30 pending in my selling journal (Shannon I had one since a few months ago actually dont worry I didnt copy you) any money I make is going in my savings account. **sigh**
GOALS
Getting my permit
Paying all the important monthly bills I need to pay ON TIME
Getting out of this house
Nothing being worried about everything all the time.
Actually sleeping at night.
Every night I go lay down, curl into a little ball laying there worried about everything my brain can think of, and lately I just feel more alone than ever. I'm selling a lot of my stuff now, cus I need money and I need to get out of here, I don't think I can take/should take all this stuff I'm too much of a pack rat and I have all this juivinelle stuff. **sigh** Life really fucking blows. Let's hope my mom doesn't kick me out just yet. She threatened today.
I'm going to talk to my grandma about moving in the apartment upstairs. I know it's more wishful thinking than anything but she needs some help and I need some space. I can't take much more of this.
I had a talk with Jackie online tonight about somethings and it really helped having someone to talk to, I felt more comfortable bringing up stuff with her that I don't think I could say to anyone else.
I make 3 dollars for sure so far, and I have about 20-30 pending in my selling journal (Shannon I had one since a few months ago actually dont worry I didnt copy you) any money I make is going in my savings account. **sigh**
GOALS
Getting my permit
Paying all the important monthly bills I need to pay ON TIME
Getting out of this house
Nothing being worried about everything all the time.
Actually sleeping at night.
Every night I go lay down, curl into a little ball laying there worried about everything my brain can think of, and lately I just feel more alone than ever. I'm selling a lot of my stuff now, cus I need money and I need to get out of here, I don't think I can take/should take all this stuff I'm too much of a pack rat and I have all this juivinelle stuff. **sigh** Life really fucking blows. Let's hope my mom doesn't kick me out just yet. She threatened today.