Fuck
More proof that my life is really shitty.....**sigh**
I hate diets & diets hate me...we never got along, & I doubt we ever will. :(
Work on Thursdays = Stock room...enough said.
I haven't really felt that good all week, why much I always get everyones illness? Do I even have an immune system? I feel so weak lately & I've been feeling nauseous (can't spell) ALL THE TIME.
Bill got into an accident today, My mom is out going to pick him up. It happened somewhere along Wherle on his way home from work. My mom said she felt numb and she was really freaking out, now would be a good time for me to have at very least, my permit. I hate feeling so un-helpful sometimes. Apparently, he hit a Fed-Ex Truck, and the truck is gone. This after paying 300 dollars to fix something that was wrong with the truck. My mom has no job...There are so many bills to pay and this is going to bring more we can't afford. I can't deal with this, and I hate to sound so self centered, but I'm so stressed out lately and there's something on my mind all the time that I don't feel I could even share here, and I'm worried & I haven't been sleeping, cutting has been tempting lately and I want to do every wrong thing. I'm so stressed out I need a little vacation. It shouldn't be that I get stressed to the point that daily activity is unmanagable.
I haven't seen Luke in a few days and it's driving me crazy. Right now I just need him with me. I need to be held, hugged & kissed. I need him to tell me that he loves me and that everything will be ok.
Right now I need to unwind and try to de-stress myself. I've tried, and I don't know what to do.
but any more pent up emotion
and i think i'm gonna explode
~Ani DiFranco, Studying Stones
I hate diets & diets hate me...we never got along, & I doubt we ever will. :(
Work on Thursdays = Stock room...enough said.
I haven't really felt that good all week, why much I always get everyones illness? Do I even have an immune system? I feel so weak lately & I've been feeling nauseous (can't spell) ALL THE TIME.
Bill got into an accident today, My mom is out going to pick him up. It happened somewhere along Wherle on his way home from work. My mom said she felt numb and she was really freaking out, now would be a good time for me to have at very least, my permit. I hate feeling so un-helpful sometimes. Apparently, he hit a Fed-Ex Truck, and the truck is gone. This after paying 300 dollars to fix something that was wrong with the truck. My mom has no job...There are so many bills to pay and this is going to bring more we can't afford. I can't deal with this, and I hate to sound so self centered, but I'm so stressed out lately and there's something on my mind all the time that I don't feel I could even share here, and I'm worried & I haven't been sleeping, cutting has been tempting lately and I want to do every wrong thing. I'm so stressed out I need a little vacation. It shouldn't be that I get stressed to the point that daily activity is unmanagable.
I haven't seen Luke in a few days and it's driving me crazy. Right now I just need him with me. I need to be held, hugged & kissed. I need him to tell me that he loves me and that everything will be ok.
Right now I need to unwind and try to de-stress myself. I've tried, and I don't know what to do.
but any more pent up emotion
and i think i'm gonna explode
~Ani DiFranco, Studying Stones