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[un_dying_love]

This will be my last entry because of the things i have written i lost a great friend have caused problems for my self and for her and for the people around me. All this journal has caused was damage becuase i couldn't keep my lifeto myself and had to be so fucking emotional about everything now i lost someone so fucking close to me that i just wont bother writing anything anymore. This person is leaving me because i'm to dramatic and yeah i probably am. This persons opinion had a great effect on me now that she thinks so lowly of me i don't know what to think about myself. I told people things that weren't my buisness to tell and i apologize, i apologize for every little thing i told about this person even if it had to do with me, I'm sorry for being an "attention whore", I'm sorry that you got hurt in our friendship, but in the end all of these apologies will never fix what happened and will never heal any hurt that i have caused for her, and it will never make the people i told forget what they to much about of her. I once told her that if i was going to be her friend it had to be all of her, and now shes saying that she doesn't want to be my friend or my enemy, but i don't see a wat i can really be neutral on this, i know to much about her to only be neutral, ad i love her to much as a friend to be her enemy.

Forever more i will just keep my mouth shut and just never deal with peoples problems so i wont know anything.