And I still believe in ever-after with you.
HIATUS.
I know some of you have noticed the lack of spamming entries for the past few months. The only update I've even given is that I have not started on NaNo which I haven't started still and I probably won't be able to do, too. >_< Truth is, life's been jam-packed with unsettling events lately and I can't even imagine broadcasting those things here. I've been hurting people and am being hurt by them as well, and somehow I'm in a spiral on the way to self-destruction right now.
In approximately less than six months, I'll permanently be changing my residence. It's a new life, a new start--something which I have never wanted before but I am craving for now. Our household is busy with keeping me in a job and processing the papers needed for the big move, and I'm under a lot of stress regarding this because it has been an on-going plan for more than fifteen years already. I really hope we can move this time, mainly because I want to forget the past few years or so; I'm so hell-bent on forgetting because I know my wounds and scars always run deep and it's almost impossible for me to forget an offense that either I have committed or has been committed against me.
One thing's for sure: something is definitely not right with me right now, and I need to stop being that person, one way or another. Maybe when that new beginning comes, I'll be clean and sober enough to come back and share my life with you guys again but for now, I've had enough of life screwing me over and throwing me off the walls and across thorned fences. NOW is just not the right time for me to be living myself up on the internet.
I'm not doing an flist-cut, but you may de-friend this journal if you feel the need to do so; I won't hold it against you. If I have promised anything to you (a fic/ fic beta/ entry/ etc.) I'm very sorry, I'm just not in the right mental and emotional state to deal with things right now. The fic journal will be public/open. Ironically, that one part of my online life is what I'll try not to put a hiatus into even if the last entry I made there was around more than six months ago. I swear I'm coming up with some material, but--baby steps so expect sporadic fic posts from me, I guess.
Thank you for the time, friends. I've never been more honest in my life than when I was writing my life away.