terrible tuesday
Woke up this morning feeling sick and achy. Looked out the window and saw snow and lots of it. I was disappointed because I wanted to go rollarblading and enjoy some nice weather for once. ASL was alright.... paula yelled at me for not using the correct facial grammar when asking a question... oh well... then she gave us a lot of homework.... went back to sarah's place for a break and then went to psych lecture.... about developmental psych... definately not something i want to study... i was bored for the first time in that lecture.... it was sad cuz i really like that class.... then i went to psych discussion... i saw the boy that i like.... anyways.. me and another girl in section were behind him going into the building... he said hey to me and had a conversation with the girl... then he sat next to the girl in section... he flirted with me last week in section... then this week... he ignored me... and flirted with that girl.... i have no idea what i did and it made me feel horrible.... i guess he just don't like me no more... made me feel depressed and question my self worth.... the girl is prettier, smarter, etc than me and that is why he likes her... blah blah blah... then.. i went to talk to my GSI about my rome paper, and test.... felt a little bit better about the test... still think she should have given me more credit.... i have a good idea of what to write for my paper and i feel sort of excited to write it... yeah... dorky sarah again... i just love to learn though.... i hope there is nothing wrong with that.... then i studied for an anthro quiz... i feel confident about that... i was supposed to go work out and eat with franzie but it got all messed up and that made me sad.... it was quite a blah day and broke my heart as well... i never want to fall in love... it just hurts... i am never going to find a guy who likes me for who i am.... ahh.... i hate love, crushes and boys.....