Survived.

[umoshlikeurmom]

I survived the first week of junior year. This year is going to be amazing. I predict it. Every semester gets better. I learn a lot in classes and such, but I also learn things socially. Things change with friendships and moving closer or moving apart and attractions and such. I have already started to notice some changes with that

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[umoshlikeurmom]

hehe, I was exaggerating a bit. I used to be afraid of it and definitely had issues. But my first boyfriend happened and he changed my mind about all of it lol. then i couldn't get enough and i wanted it all the time! i couldn't think of anything else sometimes. Now it's been a long time and i don't even think about it. i think i am less interested in sex than most people nowadays. i think it's because i'm not interested in having a relationship and i would never have sex with someone who i was not dating. i don't want a boyfriend because when i like someone enough to want to be his girlfriend, i like him A LOT. i will not date someone if i sort of like him. i have to be like obsessively crazy about him. it is bad! then i get too involved and i really lose touch of myself. my motivation is focused on him a lot and what is really important to me is school. it is totally my fault, but oh well. i just don't want it at this point in my life.

I really thought sex was overrated and i made a big deal about it afterwards. I mean it's great and stuff, but I think there are much more intimate things to show affection. i think opening up to someone and sharing all of these emotions and cuddling is sooo intimate. but i feel like sex is mostly physical and idk. it's definitely different for everyone. i think more bad comes out of it than good. again, that's for me, someone who has not really been in love!