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it's really strange to look back on things from five years ago.
two years ago.
one year ago.
six months ago.
three months ago.
everything changes so quickly. and it seems that not many things change for the good. it's like... you believe in something so strongly, and you hope for it. and you honestly think that it is GOING TO HAPPEN. and you think to yourself, "one day..." and it motivates you to get up the next day and do everything in your shitty routine life. but you have that hope, you know? that "one day..." and then all of a sudden it changes. you no longer like that. you're no longer friends with him. he broke your heart. you got over him. whatever. it all ends.
everything ends.
i don't think i believe anything lasts forever. it just CAN'T be true. the cycle of life, right? you're born. something happens. you love it. you hate it. something else happens. you love it. you hate it. something else happens. ETC ETC ETC ETC
it's neverending.
but it ends SO many times. there is so much heartbreak. and we don't even notice it, really. who were you dating this time last year? two years ago? three years ago? did you even know the person you're dating now? what about your best friend? i don't know. maybe it's from the navy lifestyle, constantly moving. constantly meeting new people. friendships are pretty easy for me to gain and lose. they don't affect me much, either (losing/gaining them). i once wondered if i was somewhat... emotionless. it seems that a lot of things that affect other people deeply don't have any affect on me. indifferent would be the term. does everyone wonder that?
it's a strange world.
a big world. there are tons of people doing the same thing as me right now. people are sleeping, going to school, swimming in the ocean, getting murdered, being born, at funerals, getting their teeth worked on in their dentists' office, driving, crying, killing themselves. i think it's amazing. it's something i don't often consider when thinking to myself, but mainly because it's too awesome for me to even wrap my head around. everyone in the world has a "one day..." a hope that they hold on to in order to get through the day. we're living for the future that doesn't even come to us. we change our plans so quickly we don't even realize it. maybe that's just me? i don't think so.
maybe there is some sort of fate. some sort of PLAN. who knows? we change our plans for our future according to the way we're living now. your boyfriend that you're in love with and going to marry one day? he's your future. your dream job you've been working hard to attain by making good grades your entire life? your future. but is it really going to happen? or are you going to want something else tomorrow? someONE else?
i've gotten off on a tangent.
that's an interesting thing to think about, though.
consider it.
two years ago.
one year ago.
six months ago.
three months ago.
everything changes so quickly. and it seems that not many things change for the good. it's like... you believe in something so strongly, and you hope for it. and you honestly think that it is GOING TO HAPPEN. and you think to yourself, "one day..." and it motivates you to get up the next day and do everything in your shitty routine life. but you have that hope, you know? that "one day..." and then all of a sudden it changes. you no longer like that. you're no longer friends with him. he broke your heart. you got over him. whatever. it all ends.
everything ends.
i don't think i believe anything lasts forever. it just CAN'T be true. the cycle of life, right? you're born. something happens. you love it. you hate it. something else happens. you love it. you hate it. something else happens. ETC ETC ETC ETC
it's neverending.
but it ends SO many times. there is so much heartbreak. and we don't even notice it, really. who were you dating this time last year? two years ago? three years ago? did you even know the person you're dating now? what about your best friend? i don't know. maybe it's from the navy lifestyle, constantly moving. constantly meeting new people. friendships are pretty easy for me to gain and lose. they don't affect me much, either (losing/gaining them). i once wondered if i was somewhat... emotionless. it seems that a lot of things that affect other people deeply don't have any affect on me. indifferent would be the term. does everyone wonder that?
it's a strange world.
a big world. there are tons of people doing the same thing as me right now. people are sleeping, going to school, swimming in the ocean, getting murdered, being born, at funerals, getting their teeth worked on in their dentists' office, driving, crying, killing themselves. i think it's amazing. it's something i don't often consider when thinking to myself, but mainly because it's too awesome for me to even wrap my head around. everyone in the world has a "one day..." a hope that they hold on to in order to get through the day. we're living for the future that doesn't even come to us. we change our plans so quickly we don't even realize it. maybe that's just me? i don't think so.
maybe there is some sort of fate. some sort of PLAN. who knows? we change our plans for our future according to the way we're living now. your boyfriend that you're in love with and going to marry one day? he's your future. your dream job you've been working hard to attain by making good grades your entire life? your future. but is it really going to happen? or are you going to want something else tomorrow? someONE else?
i've gotten off on a tangent.
that's an interesting thing to think about, though.
consider it.