Drabble: Burning Desire
Title: Burning Desire
Rated: R
Genre: Dark Angst (And I do mean DARK!!!!)
Pairing: Junma, Tomapi
Notes: This was written as an alternate ending to It's Human Nature to Want More (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3) story written by
mm_nani. For those who haven't read the story, I recommend you read it before proceeding to the drabble. The drabble will make more sense once you have the background, I promise!!
When Toma leaned in to kiss his cheek, Tomohisa caught his lips in a soft kiss. Toma’s eyes widened in shock and his grip on Tomohisa’s shoulder tightened. Tomohisa got bolder and pressed harder, and ran his tongue over Toma’s bottom lip softly coaxing it to part for him. But it didn’t budge and neither did Toma, he seemed frozen on spot.
He was confused. He honestly didn’t know if he should continue or not. Toma made no reaction. He knew it was wrong and yet it would have been so much easier if Toma had pushed him off. It’s just that he had wanted this for so long. Hoped for so goddamn long that those soft lips would adore his and now that it happened he just could not deny this one little pleasure to his selfish, unhappy heart … it seemed too cruel … he just could not.
But after such a long wait, his heart wasn’t satisfied with a chaste kiss. No, it had always wanted so much more and now that it had that little hope, that little chance, he couldn’t stop here.
Half of Toma’s shirt was unbuttoned and he ran his fingers along Toma’s smooth chest. He moaned into the kiss … after so long, finally this warmth. The one he wanted oh so much. His skin tingled with the anticipation.
Toma finally reacted and pushed him off.
“Tomo, don’t,” he hurriedly got up.
It was too late. Tomohisa was no longer in control. He was taken over by that little beating in his chest - the one that had tasted what it had wanted for so long; the one that was not satisfied; the one that wanted more.
“You can’t turn your back now!” Tomohisa growled as he scurried after Toma, grabbing him by his elbow and slamming him against the wall, trapping him there.
“You can’t because I love you!” he kissed along Toma’s neck and bit down hard making sure to leave his mark - HIS … not that fucking bastard Jun’s!
“Because I want you,” he pressed up flush against Toma, grinding his erection against the older man so that he understood fully what Tomohisa wanted and desired.
Toma gasped, his head smacked the wall painfully as Tomohisa crashed his lips onto his own, tongue forcing access.
Tomohisa was just starting to explore that soft cavern; fingers were just starting to roam over forbidden territory when Toma pushed him off and punched him hard in the stomach. As his body hit the floor painfully, the realization registered - Rejection.
He slowly picked himself up and looked at the panting Toma - shocked and wounded. The thoughts of Toma happily making out with Jun on the couch overlapped in his mind. Tomohisa shook his head, his fingers clenched into a tight fist slowly. ‘No… no no no!’ denial coursed through his mind louder and louder until he let out a shrill scream - a scream his girlfriend probably could have matched.
“YOU CAN’T JUST PUSH ME AWAY… NOT NOW!!!” Tomohisa yelled and pushed Toma back against the wall. He wouldn’t … couldn’t accept Toma’s rejection. Toma himself had confessed to him a few moments ago. He had clearly said he loved Tomohisa. Toma loved Tomohisa very much. Thus, Toma had no right to reject his affection - not after waiting for years, not after Toma brought home a stranger one day and introduced him as a friend, not after Toma freely gave himself up to the said stranger under the same roof.
Toma smacked his head against the wall painfully a second time when Tomohisa had pushed him back. Toma’s eyes went wide when Tomohisa’s fingers wrapped around his delicate neck. His pulse fluttered like a trapped butterfly under Tomohisa’s surprisingly strong fingers.
Tomohisa’s eyes filled with tears as he watched Toma’s desperation. He didn’t realize when his fingers had started pressing down on Toma’s neck and he never felt Toma’s fingers digging into his wrists trying to pry them away. All Tomohisa knew was his own need to be close to Toma one last time - after all, he would be gone from Toma’s life soon, probably never to see him again.
As the tears flowed unchecked - letting Toma see his weakness openly for the first time - Tomohisa leaned forward to kiss the lips that had parted voluntarily. He smiled and pressed his lips against Toma’s. He sighed with pleasure as he finally found bliss in exploring the warm recesses of Toma’s mouth. When Toma tried to move his head away, Tomohisa pressed his fingers deeper - he had no intention of letting Toma go now.
Toma stopped his struggles halfway through the kiss, yet Tomohisa continued to keep Toma down under his strong hands and the brutal kiss - he didn’t want Toma to pretend to let him kiss and push him away when Tomohisa let go of him.
When Tomohisa finally pulled away, Toma had gone slack against the wall. Tomohisa finally pulled his hands away from Toma’s neck and carried him to the sofa to gently lay him down. His fingers brushed against Toma’s delicate neck where bruises had started to appear. Tomohisa sighed softly and placed one last kiss over Toma’s forehead.
That was how Jun found them. The flowers he had picked up at the corner store dropped to the floor as he watched Tomohisa lean down to kiss Toma. Growling softly, he stomped over to the couch and viciously pulled Tomohisa away from his boyfriend and shoved him aside, “I don’t ever want to see you trying that again!”
The words, however, fell on deaf ears as Tomohisa fell back hitting the back of his head against a sharp corner of the coffee table. He barely had a few moments of consciousness as he stared up at the white ceiling. The last words he heard before he lost consciousness were frantic yells coming from Jun, “Toma … Toma?”
Tomohisa sighed softly and his lips curved into a smile - he knew his wish was finally granted; he would be together with Toma forever and no one could come between them, ever again.
[The End]
Opinions?
Rated: R
Genre: Dark Angst (And I do mean DARK!!!!)
Pairing: Junma, Tomapi
Notes: This was written as an alternate ending to It's Human Nature to Want More (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3) story written by
mm_nani. For those who haven't read the story, I recommend you read it before proceeding to the drabble. The drabble will make more sense once you have the background, I promise!!
When Toma leaned in to kiss his cheek, Tomohisa caught his lips in a soft kiss. Toma’s eyes widened in shock and his grip on Tomohisa’s shoulder tightened. Tomohisa got bolder and pressed harder, and ran his tongue over Toma’s bottom lip softly coaxing it to part for him. But it didn’t budge and neither did Toma, he seemed frozen on spot.
He was confused. He honestly didn’t know if he should continue or not. Toma made no reaction. He knew it was wrong and yet it would have been so much easier if Toma had pushed him off. It’s just that he had wanted this for so long. Hoped for so goddamn long that those soft lips would adore his and now that it happened he just could not deny this one little pleasure to his selfish, unhappy heart … it seemed too cruel … he just could not.
But after such a long wait, his heart wasn’t satisfied with a chaste kiss. No, it had always wanted so much more and now that it had that little hope, that little chance, he couldn’t stop here.
Half of Toma’s shirt was unbuttoned and he ran his fingers along Toma’s smooth chest. He moaned into the kiss … after so long, finally this warmth. The one he wanted oh so much. His skin tingled with the anticipation.
Toma finally reacted and pushed him off.
“Tomo, don’t,” he hurriedly got up.
It was too late. Tomohisa was no longer in control. He was taken over by that little beating in his chest - the one that had tasted what it had wanted for so long; the one that was not satisfied; the one that wanted more.
“You can’t turn your back now!” Tomohisa growled as he scurried after Toma, grabbing him by his elbow and slamming him against the wall, trapping him there.
“You can’t because I love you!” he kissed along Toma’s neck and bit down hard making sure to leave his mark - HIS … not that fucking bastard Jun’s!
“Because I want you,” he pressed up flush against Toma, grinding his erection against the older man so that he understood fully what Tomohisa wanted and desired.
Toma gasped, his head smacked the wall painfully as Tomohisa crashed his lips onto his own, tongue forcing access.
Tomohisa was just starting to explore that soft cavern; fingers were just starting to roam over forbidden territory when Toma pushed him off and punched him hard in the stomach. As his body hit the floor painfully, the realization registered - Rejection.
He slowly picked himself up and looked at the panting Toma - shocked and wounded. The thoughts of Toma happily making out with Jun on the couch overlapped in his mind. Tomohisa shook his head, his fingers clenched into a tight fist slowly. ‘No… no no no!’ denial coursed through his mind louder and louder until he let out a shrill scream - a scream his girlfriend probably could have matched.
“YOU CAN’T JUST PUSH ME AWAY… NOT NOW!!!” Tomohisa yelled and pushed Toma back against the wall. He wouldn’t … couldn’t accept Toma’s rejection. Toma himself had confessed to him a few moments ago. He had clearly said he loved Tomohisa. Toma loved Tomohisa very much. Thus, Toma had no right to reject his affection - not after waiting for years, not after Toma brought home a stranger one day and introduced him as a friend, not after Toma freely gave himself up to the said stranger under the same roof.
Toma smacked his head against the wall painfully a second time when Tomohisa had pushed him back. Toma’s eyes went wide when Tomohisa’s fingers wrapped around his delicate neck. His pulse fluttered like a trapped butterfly under Tomohisa’s surprisingly strong fingers.
Tomohisa’s eyes filled with tears as he watched Toma’s desperation. He didn’t realize when his fingers had started pressing down on Toma’s neck and he never felt Toma’s fingers digging into his wrists trying to pry them away. All Tomohisa knew was his own need to be close to Toma one last time - after all, he would be gone from Toma’s life soon, probably never to see him again.
As the tears flowed unchecked - letting Toma see his weakness openly for the first time - Tomohisa leaned forward to kiss the lips that had parted voluntarily. He smiled and pressed his lips against Toma’s. He sighed with pleasure as he finally found bliss in exploring the warm recesses of Toma’s mouth. When Toma tried to move his head away, Tomohisa pressed his fingers deeper - he had no intention of letting Toma go now.
Toma stopped his struggles halfway through the kiss, yet Tomohisa continued to keep Toma down under his strong hands and the brutal kiss - he didn’t want Toma to pretend to let him kiss and push him away when Tomohisa let go of him.
When Tomohisa finally pulled away, Toma had gone slack against the wall. Tomohisa finally pulled his hands away from Toma’s neck and carried him to the sofa to gently lay him down. His fingers brushed against Toma’s delicate neck where bruises had started to appear. Tomohisa sighed softly and placed one last kiss over Toma’s forehead.
That was how Jun found them. The flowers he had picked up at the corner store dropped to the floor as he watched Tomohisa lean down to kiss Toma. Growling softly, he stomped over to the couch and viciously pulled Tomohisa away from his boyfriend and shoved him aside, “I don’t ever want to see you trying that again!”
The words, however, fell on deaf ears as Tomohisa fell back hitting the back of his head against a sharp corner of the coffee table. He barely had a few moments of consciousness as he stared up at the white ceiling. The last words he heard before he lost consciousness were frantic yells coming from Jun, “Toma … Toma?”
Tomohisa sighed softly and his lips curved into a smile - he knew his wish was finally granted; he would be together with Toma forever and no one could come between them, ever again.
[The End]
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