3 years since the last post?
....which means I'm getting better? last time it was 6 years. improvement. XD XD XD
Anyhow, hobbies have changed drastically since then. I hear Johnny-san has passed away (I dunno when exactly, but I'm under the impression that it's been long enough that most people know and I am just behind)
Not much going on other than that I feel like talking so I'm back here to blast my thoughts ^^;; because twitter is unsatisfying due to the format (ie, short blasts which probably get drowned out and forever lost). And Tumblr is visual mainly, and also probably gets drowned out. ...and I just want the anonymity but permanence of a live journal entry.
Anyhow, I've reverted back to singing, which now has a feature that allows you to sing "live" with other people. This along with the fact that I'm singing less Japanese and more in languages I can actually communicate in, is really a game changer. ...it's also highly addictive, which causes havoc with my schedule. cause need to life, but instead doing this ^^;; ...because I lack self control. lol
Anyhow all this leads up to the subject I want to talk about, which is online friendships. I'm really curious about how people handle them or what it's like for folks. Because nowadays, it's less stigmatized, but still the stigma is there if you're not really really young, right?
So in RL (see even that term stigmatized against online friends no?), I tend not to talk about my internet going ons. ....because I generally keep it separated out. But the internet life takes up a goodly portion of my energy and time and emotions, etc. And all of the things I put into it are real - so it's not like internet friends are fake? ...but there is an impermanence to them. It's easier to lose touch and easier for people to disappear or not put effort into fixing things when conflict happens. or when interests diverge.
That said, I dunno about anyone else, but I consider my first internet friendships to have happened here. ...which is probably odd, because I lurk. I don't think I gave out personal info to anyone here. But I spent a good amount of time reading the things people on my list wrote and getting to know their written words. ....and developing ideas around who they were based on that. I mean I have no idea if any of them even remember who the heck I am. But I remember them. (does that sounds scary? lol) ...because they had an effect on me, and many of them I liked. or at least I liked what I saw of them. Does that make sense?
...and every so often, like now, I think of them in passing. ...and wonder what they are up to. So if you see this and you're still here. even if you see this late. drop me a line. I'd love to reconnect. ...I just might not see it for a while ^^;; depending.
That said, I have "stalked and found" some folks on twitter, but interaction there is hard and I don't think they have any idea who I am. lol
But this singing app, maybe because you're singing and talking and people can hear each other is different. it's easy to feel like you know the people you're there with. which can be good I think. I imagine this is a little like when people play games together and use discord to communicate with each other. ...that's something I've always sorta envied. scheduling has always been wacky for me so being consistent in some sort of guild doesn't work for me. Plus I get lazy and will jump from hobby to hobby.. and I'm wary because talking means people will know I'm female. lol (I have too many issues with privacy).
there are people the singing thing who also show their faces (which I imagine makes getting to know people even easier(?)) ....but that's a hangup for me. so. XD.
I forget what the point of this post was. XD;; maybe just that I wonder if folks feel differently or the same about online friendships. ok that's all.