why can't i always feel like this
so i have to say this weekend has def been something i needed. studied friday for mcat stuff even though i had strep and felt crappy for most of the day. didn't get to see eddie which stunk but i did get to hang out with gretchen and some of the MCs which was nice. eddie and i do spend a lot of time together so we dont' always get time with our friends so it was nice for both of us to get to do our thing. plus him goin out with the boys insured i got to bed nice and early for the practice mcat on sat. before i went to sleep eddie told me to stop worrying that i know my stuff and that i need to relax. that he knows now is when i'm going to peak and that i'd get a 30 on the practice mcat. well even though it took about 2 hours to fall asleep i woke up feelin rather refreshed and the first thing i thought about was what eddie said to me before bed. it helped and put a smile on my face. the mcat went ok...physical sci section was still hard but i think i def did better than last time. which is good b/c i think that low score has been a cause of my newly freakin out feeling.
tbs stuff was later that nite, then time with my baby. the evening plans got kinda screwed up by me but not intentionally. but once again i got see how much eddie really does care about me...not that i ever doubt it but sometimes he just says things that i'm just like wow. oh and the other nite we were layin in bed talkin about tbs stuff before goin to bed and i almost started laughing cause i felt like a married couple...i just kinda imagined us later on in life doin the same thing except talkin about like our jobs or something. i've never had that feeling before. like we've talked about it but i've never really had an event where i felt like what it could be like if we really were.
today i finally made it to miami vineyard again. studied physics before church b/c i woke up and couldn't go back to bed. which was good b/c then i was able to go to the miami fair with eddie after church. that was great...met up with papo (eddie's best friend) and his fiance debbie and his family and cousins. eddie's sole purpose for goin to the fair was not the rides but the food. we didn't go on a single ride. which was fine with me. it was great just walkin in the beautiful weather laughing with everyone. afterwards was short detour to the perez's house where we remet up with everyone (we stayed longer at the fair than they did to eat some more). that was fun. carlos is hilarious and anna told me not to be a stranger. that now that summer was comin they'll be havin bbq and goin swimmin so they better see me. it was pretty kewl to feel so accepted by people i hadn't met till today even though we've been hearin about each other for quite some time. then it was back here for a lil more physics studying then eddie and i watched 4 episodes of ER.
so right now i'm feelin very content, very happy, and not freakin out like i was earlier. i haven't cried since that last entry i made. and my friends and family has been very supportive and helpful when i've told them how i felt. i feel extremely lucky right now...no not lucky blessed...cause luck would imply that this was all by chance and i know its not.
tomorrow nite is physics exam then off to the heat bulls game with ryan and lex. that should def prove for some good times. hopefully the test goes better than last time...did the exam from last year again and got it all right. which happened last time when i got a C but hopefully this time its better.
ok yea enough babling...gnite.
tbs stuff was later that nite, then time with my baby. the evening plans got kinda screwed up by me but not intentionally. but once again i got see how much eddie really does care about me...not that i ever doubt it but sometimes he just says things that i'm just like wow. oh and the other nite we were layin in bed talkin about tbs stuff before goin to bed and i almost started laughing cause i felt like a married couple...i just kinda imagined us later on in life doin the same thing except talkin about like our jobs or something. i've never had that feeling before. like we've talked about it but i've never really had an event where i felt like what it could be like if we really were.
today i finally made it to miami vineyard again. studied physics before church b/c i woke up and couldn't go back to bed. which was good b/c then i was able to go to the miami fair with eddie after church. that was great...met up with papo (eddie's best friend) and his fiance debbie and his family and cousins. eddie's sole purpose for goin to the fair was not the rides but the food. we didn't go on a single ride. which was fine with me. it was great just walkin in the beautiful weather laughing with everyone. afterwards was short detour to the perez's house where we remet up with everyone (we stayed longer at the fair than they did to eat some more). that was fun. carlos is hilarious and anna told me not to be a stranger. that now that summer was comin they'll be havin bbq and goin swimmin so they better see me. it was pretty kewl to feel so accepted by people i hadn't met till today even though we've been hearin about each other for quite some time. then it was back here for a lil more physics studying then eddie and i watched 4 episodes of ER.
so right now i'm feelin very content, very happy, and not freakin out like i was earlier. i haven't cried since that last entry i made. and my friends and family has been very supportive and helpful when i've told them how i felt. i feel extremely lucky right now...no not lucky blessed...cause luck would imply that this was all by chance and i know its not.
tomorrow nite is physics exam then off to the heat bulls game with ryan and lex. that should def prove for some good times. hopefully the test goes better than last time...did the exam from last year again and got it all right. which happened last time when i got a C but hopefully this time its better.
ok yea enough babling...gnite.