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hmm haven't updated in a while again...not much has been happening..busy busy busy with school and tbs and band staff stuff (yes ladies and gentlemen marching season is over and i still have to do stuff for it). i had a break down i believe last week...a combination of being overwhelemed with how much time tbs is taking up and how little time i've spent on MCAT studying (which i should be doing now) and how the one i love with all my heart had started to add stress to my life instead of help relieve it. not to worry though ladies and gents...its all worked out. i cried a lil...talked to God a lil and everything is all better now. i think i was mainly upset once i realized that i had become so overwhelemed and in those days that it was all adding up i never once turned to God and asked him to help me and that made me sad. i had been doing so good with that b/c in the past i would rely on myself and had found out that it never worked and then i was turning to other people and though they can offer support they can't offer me the peace God can. but yea the work for tbs has subsided, i'm studying more for the MCAT, and though we've had our first real fight (which only lasted about 10 minutes) it almost worked in the positive to prove to me that our love is real. i can def say we're no longer in that honeymoon period of the relationship and u know what i like it. it feels more realistic, and i know the love we have for each other is real and not just some temporary puppy dog love. (its 4 months today...never in my wildest dreams did i think i would be typin this after that painful nite in july...).
so all in all life is back to that happiness and peace i had been feeling but had lost for a lil bit. still busy with school but i know as long as i depend on God to see me through i'll make it.
so all in all life is back to that happiness and peace i had been feeling but had lost for a lil bit. still busy with school but i know as long as i depend on God to see me through i'll make it.