Happy? Yes, I am happy.
It's not often I get to say stuff like this, because I'm normally in various stages of anxiety, so here's me taking the opportunity:
I feel so happy and content with life right now.
Okay, so I don't have my money right now. But I have a really nice apartment in a location that is super convenient. I live 10 minutes from work, I can't complain about my schedule, and my co-workers, for the most part, are all really nice.
I'm making DECENT money again. I don't have to worry about rent, and I can consider saving money soon.
My writing muse, while still in disarray, is coming back to me. KRW might be over, but it still is giving me the inspiration to keep writing for a while longer. The more I write, the better I feel about it. Along with my fanfic, I can say I'm a regularly published writer now. I don't know my audience, or how much I get read, and I don't get paid for it. But to be 24 and be able to say I'm regularly published feels like a major feat. As well, despite my schedule at work, I feel like actually trying to conquer NaNo again! It's been 3 years since I felt I actually could, so it's a huge step for me.
Today, I joined the Seoul International Choir. We're doing Handel's Messiah for Christmas, which is so beyond anything I've ever done vocally, but I'm excited. For 4 hours a week, I get to feel like the person I was when I was in grade 12, auditioning for Queens school of music and being filled with aspirations for the stage. I have a physical outlet that, while isn't as exhausting as a workout, is just as fulfilling, and much more social.
Yes, there are times where I walk down the street and feel like I stick out. Which I know I do. There are things I wish I could change, things I wish could be better... But right now, despite the want for more, I like where I am now, both mentally, work wise, creatively and physically. I feel like, no matter what, the place I am in now will be a great starting block for my future endeavors, be it losing more weight, focusing on my creative work, or simply reducing my debts back home.
I like feeling like this. :)
I feel so happy and content with life right now.
Okay, so I don't have my money right now. But I have a really nice apartment in a location that is super convenient. I live 10 minutes from work, I can't complain about my schedule, and my co-workers, for the most part, are all really nice.
I'm making DECENT money again. I don't have to worry about rent, and I can consider saving money soon.
My writing muse, while still in disarray, is coming back to me. KRW might be over, but it still is giving me the inspiration to keep writing for a while longer. The more I write, the better I feel about it. Along with my fanfic, I can say I'm a regularly published writer now. I don't know my audience, or how much I get read, and I don't get paid for it. But to be 24 and be able to say I'm regularly published feels like a major feat. As well, despite my schedule at work, I feel like actually trying to conquer NaNo again! It's been 3 years since I felt I actually could, so it's a huge step for me.
Today, I joined the Seoul International Choir. We're doing Handel's Messiah for Christmas, which is so beyond anything I've ever done vocally, but I'm excited. For 4 hours a week, I get to feel like the person I was when I was in grade 12, auditioning for Queens school of music and being filled with aspirations for the stage. I have a physical outlet that, while isn't as exhausting as a workout, is just as fulfilling, and much more social.
Yes, there are times where I walk down the street and feel like I stick out. Which I know I do. There are things I wish I could change, things I wish could be better... But right now, despite the want for more, I like where I am now, both mentally, work wise, creatively and physically. I feel like, no matter what, the place I am in now will be a great starting block for my future endeavors, be it losing more weight, focusing on my creative work, or simply reducing my debts back home.
I like feeling like this. :)