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Today I suddenly felt that for a moment I came first.
I like to think that I don't need to, but it warms me too much to feel loved. I suppose I make a good performer for this reason but I do want you all to want me, I think i need someone to need me too.
But I'm trying to keep my positive energy, to keep smiling through as much as I can. I really hate being angry.
I can love you all even if you don't love me. That's MY love and I can give it to whomever I want. and today I felt some back and I'm so grateful that I was blessed so. If I'm misinterpreting the words, it's my happiness, and I'll do with it what I want.
I'm very excited for all of this, I just want my wish so badly to come true. It is what it is... a family. I've missed having that kind of unconditional love for quite a long time. You have no idea how warm it feels.
thank you
I like to think that I don't need to, but it warms me too much to feel loved. I suppose I make a good performer for this reason but I do want you all to want me, I think i need someone to need me too.
But I'm trying to keep my positive energy, to keep smiling through as much as I can. I really hate being angry.
I can love you all even if you don't love me. That's MY love and I can give it to whomever I want. and today I felt some back and I'm so grateful that I was blessed so. If I'm misinterpreting the words, it's my happiness, and I'll do with it what I want.
I'm very excited for all of this, I just want my wish so badly to come true. It is what it is... a family. I've missed having that kind of unconditional love for quite a long time. You have no idea how warm it feels.
thank you