A hurray and a hurrah!
Well. The god of all that is of luck has shined his face upon me, for truly that could all be that which has influenced my life yesterday. I, Erik, have been invited to participate in the Ontario Central Region Epee fencing team, of which only 2 junior fencers of the area could partake in. I had gathered up enough points from various regions in order to be eligable for this event - which I hold high esteem in being able to achieve an invitation alone! It is the first accomplishment of my life... But I'm not really proud because I sort of stole it from those who were worthier than myself... Although I may not have been as high calibre as some candidates I went to more tournaments in order to gain more points to gain the invitation. But I'm very sad right now, because I have not yet celebrated it for all it's worth... People have said, "Hey, congradulations." But I've not heard it straight from any friends... No victory party or anything... Not even a cup of coffee down at 69 on Brock. It makes me feel very lonely.
I've been really sensitive over the past couple days. Everything seems to bring me down. A few people have remarked, "Don't get mad!" after a joke which involved me, and Rob made a sims character to represent me who was really grouchy... It makes me feel like everyone thinks I'm an angry person...
My courses this semester are going smoothly, they're all math oriented so the homework this semester is going to be easy and quick compared to usual (No notes! Whoopee!). I feel good about this, I got 100% on the first physics quiz (Albeit easy.) and 87% on my calculus review (I couldn't remember any of it, and a couple times I didn't do enough steps.) so it's a good start to the semester.
I feel very tired from a combination of the hard workout last night and lack of sleep/proper vitamins. And I feel very lonely. It's not so much that I feel disbanded from all friends, but that I only really see Rob outside of school... And that there are no friends in my classes.
Well that's a lie. Matt is in my first two classes, but we don't exactly always get along one-to-one, especially 'cause he's always bringing up "Don't get angry" after a lot of things he says (Which can truly get annoying, kind of like the "Your mom" joke - Except more personal.). And there's Rebecca in my Physics class... But I don't know where Rebecca and I stand, and I don't think it could be anything more than the type of friend that's just above aquantance... I think we're getting better, but it makes me feel bad when we can't talk sometimes (Which funny enough hasn't happened in person, only online - Maybe I'm just looking into things.) Oh well anyways.
So yeah, I never see anyone. My days are a little packed, but I'd like to see more than just Rob all the time. I mean he's a good friend and all, but it's just one friend... I'm not a loner by nature, not by heart, only by society's tight grip around me have I been plunged into this eternal depth of loneliness.
Enough of the depressing talk v.v Anyways, aside from lacking any type of social life I've been rather good. I mean, I did get invited to Ontario Winter Games, and I'm doing well in school, and everything else seems to be going relatively smoothly...
I've decided to remove all comments on my romantic life in this entry to spare you the wretchedness and torment of even the mere perspective of it.
Good night all, sweet dreams and what have you.
Sincerely,
E.L
I've been really sensitive over the past couple days. Everything seems to bring me down. A few people have remarked, "Don't get mad!" after a joke which involved me, and Rob made a sims character to represent me who was really grouchy... It makes me feel like everyone thinks I'm an angry person...
My courses this semester are going smoothly, they're all math oriented so the homework this semester is going to be easy and quick compared to usual (No notes! Whoopee!). I feel good about this, I got 100% on the first physics quiz (Albeit easy.) and 87% on my calculus review (I couldn't remember any of it, and a couple times I didn't do enough steps.) so it's a good start to the semester.
I feel very tired from a combination of the hard workout last night and lack of sleep/proper vitamins. And I feel very lonely. It's not so much that I feel disbanded from all friends, but that I only really see Rob outside of school... And that there are no friends in my classes.
Well that's a lie. Matt is in my first two classes, but we don't exactly always get along one-to-one, especially 'cause he's always bringing up "Don't get angry" after a lot of things he says (Which can truly get annoying, kind of like the "Your mom" joke - Except more personal.). And there's Rebecca in my Physics class... But I don't know where Rebecca and I stand, and I don't think it could be anything more than the type of friend that's just above aquantance... I think we're getting better, but it makes me feel bad when we can't talk sometimes (Which funny enough hasn't happened in person, only online - Maybe I'm just looking into things.) Oh well anyways.
So yeah, I never see anyone. My days are a little packed, but I'd like to see more than just Rob all the time. I mean he's a good friend and all, but it's just one friend... I'm not a loner by nature, not by heart, only by society's tight grip around me have I been plunged into this eternal depth of loneliness.
Enough of the depressing talk v.v Anyways, aside from lacking any type of social life I've been rather good. I mean, I did get invited to Ontario Winter Games, and I'm doing well in school, and everything else seems to be going relatively smoothly...
I've decided to remove all comments on my romantic life in this entry to spare you the wretchedness and torment of even the mere perspective of it.
Good night all, sweet dreams and what have you.
Sincerely,
E.L