To myself.
I like to be alone. I wish I was alone all the time. Nothing is more enjoyable than being completely and utterly alone. (wearing high heels and short skirts in my house).
Today I felt very content to be alone sitting next to an elderly man on a bench at the mall. I enjoyed my ice cream and he felt rather uncomfortable that I would sit next to him seeing as there were plenty of other benches in the area. We were alone, he and I. I enjoyed that.
I went into glamor shots and got a pamphlet on prices for pictures. I skipped my government class to take a nap at home today. I am through going out and drinking. Enough of that crap. That is why I moved away to begin with!!!!! Kaye, you need to focus on the reason you have moved so far away from all the things you love!! You need to get educated and quit wasteing time with fun things. There is no time for fun in your new world. The fun stops here.
So there it is. My happiness is constantly teetering on the edge of severe loneliness. Although, I enjoy being alone. And I love my philosophy class. I can never balance my severe need to be alone with an equally severe need to be in contact with people. My behavior is erratic in this regard, well I suppose it is erratic in every regard.
Plus, my apartment is turning into a sex den. I feel dirty when I sleep in there. There are tons of crumpled paper towels everywhere it seems. The distraction is too great. I must stop it before it really takes over.
Now I must read a book that I have been post poning because I have been drinking too much. NO MORE!!!
Today I felt very content to be alone sitting next to an elderly man on a bench at the mall. I enjoyed my ice cream and he felt rather uncomfortable that I would sit next to him seeing as there were plenty of other benches in the area. We were alone, he and I. I enjoyed that.
I went into glamor shots and got a pamphlet on prices for pictures. I skipped my government class to take a nap at home today. I am through going out and drinking. Enough of that crap. That is why I moved away to begin with!!!!! Kaye, you need to focus on the reason you have moved so far away from all the things you love!! You need to get educated and quit wasteing time with fun things. There is no time for fun in your new world. The fun stops here.
So there it is. My happiness is constantly teetering on the edge of severe loneliness. Although, I enjoy being alone. And I love my philosophy class. I can never balance my severe need to be alone with an equally severe need to be in contact with people. My behavior is erratic in this regard, well I suppose it is erratic in every regard.
Plus, my apartment is turning into a sex den. I feel dirty when I sleep in there. There are tons of crumpled paper towels everywhere it seems. The distraction is too great. I must stop it before it really takes over.
Now I must read a book that I have been post poning because I have been drinking too much. NO MORE!!!