kindness
So today I was unwaveringly kind to everyone. I am kind to everyone every day though, so there is no difference today. Sometimes when I am ringing people up at my register I look at them when they are looking away and I want to kiss them and hug them and cry. I feel like I love them so much and it makes me want to cry.
One second I will feel like I hate myself so horrifyingly. Like I want to go to the bathroom and slam my head repeatedly either on the mirror or the toilette, and the next second I will want to cry because I love the person I am ringing up so deeply.
Sometimes I will punish someone for not being very nice to me when I ring them up. I might charge them a little extra on thier salads or produce. I am like a jealous lover who is punishing thier unfaithful partner. Sort of like that.
Anyhoo, that is what is going on. And I am so excited! I think I am going to do alot of drugs this summer. That should be fun. Maybe I will prostitute around portland to support my drug habit. I don't mind jerking dudes off in alleyways. It's not like I haven't done it before...well, I have only done that to my boyfriends, and not total strangers who are paying me to do it for them so maybe it will be different, but not really! Maybe it will be better!
JUST KIDDING!!! ZING!!!POW!!!ZAP!!!
One second I will feel like I hate myself so horrifyingly. Like I want to go to the bathroom and slam my head repeatedly either on the mirror or the toilette, and the next second I will want to cry because I love the person I am ringing up so deeply.
Sometimes I will punish someone for not being very nice to me when I ring them up. I might charge them a little extra on thier salads or produce. I am like a jealous lover who is punishing thier unfaithful partner. Sort of like that.
Anyhoo, that is what is going on. And I am so excited! I think I am going to do alot of drugs this summer. That should be fun. Maybe I will prostitute around portland to support my drug habit. I don't mind jerking dudes off in alleyways. It's not like I haven't done it before...well, I have only done that to my boyfriends, and not total strangers who are paying me to do it for them so maybe it will be different, but not really! Maybe it will be better!
JUST KIDDING!!! ZING!!!POW!!!ZAP!!!