Cupid is a slacker.
Yeah, so I've been MIA for about a month. Sorry about that. Anyways, good things are a-comin'. I've got big plans, not just for me but for you as well.
I know I've been distant lately. Sorry about that too. I've got a lot on my mind and friendship seems to have taken a backseat to other things. Sorry, i just got used to being alone. I'm a loner. A loner. I never thought I'd say that about myself, but it's getting more and more true. I used to be so dependent on other's acceptance of me: how I looked, how I held myself in public, my social standing. Now I'm not. I guess i finally realized that you have to get right with yourself and accept who you are first before you worry about someone else. And it's because of that fact that I'm not close with a lot of people I was once close with. I've abandoned people, and now they've all but abandoned me back. I've also realized that quitting cheerleading has permanently burned some bridges. Eventhough it made me happier to do so, you just can't seem to understand that can you? Maybe it's just better that we aren't friends. Quitting was what was best for me, and if you can't understand that, then what we had once wasn't friendship after all. I hate you. There, I said it. I hate everything about you. I used to adore you. Used to even be jealous. Now I realize that you annoy me and you are nothing but a wannabe. That's it. You do things i don't agree with - then you glorify them. I can't have friends like you. I don't like fickle people. I'm loyal and I expect it in return. So loyal in fact, that it was extremely hard to just write that. But I know that noone reads this, so it's not like I'm going to get found out.
***Other randomness***
There's a website under construction. It's gonna be a portfolio/blog/DIY fashion site with tutorials on how to alter and make clothes, bags, etc. Hopefully cool and not too fashion-nerd. I hope. If you have any tutorials or ideas to throw at me, go for it. Who knows, maybe it will take off and I'll be the new ohhmystars or supayana. That'd be great. I'd like to sew for a living this summer and put things up on eBay every week. Mostly so i don't have to get a real job.
2006 is a great year for snowbarding addicts like myself. Last week we had X-games, and coming up we have the Olympics. Could I be anymore excited?!?!? NOPE! I've already made the executive decision to be a loser on friday night and stay home to watch the opening ceremonies from the comfort of my living room on NBC. Sue me. I love this stuff.
I turn 18 in less than a month.
I'm in love with someone I've barely ever talked to. I don't even know his last name. He never talks, he seems very shy. He is an amazing artist though. Fort Mill boys pale in comparison. He has really beautiful hands. Hope that wasn't too weird of an observation to make. I probably just notice that because I want those hands on me. Yeah, Yeah, I'm slutty. Whatever, ohwell. If you want a normal observation, he also has great hair. Anyways, this little "romance" of mine is going nowhere. looks like I'm boyfriendless for another valentines day.
I've never had a boyfriend on Valentine's day. Why is that? My relationships always seem to end before or start after. wtf? Am I allergic to cupid or something? does cupid even know I exist? If he does, he's a slacker. I'm gonna need some of those magic arrows of his soon.
I hope tomorrow is a snow day.
The new leaked Fall Out Boy song is really good. Sounds way different than any of their other stuff. You can tell they all started out in hardcore bands.
Well, that's all for now. I'll try to update this thing more frequently from now on. Writing that out gave me a chance to get those thoughts out of my head. Maybe I'll sleep better tonight because of it.
<3 sorry for all the ranting
You are my lobster.
I know I've been distant lately. Sorry about that too. I've got a lot on my mind and friendship seems to have taken a backseat to other things. Sorry, i just got used to being alone. I'm a loner. A loner. I never thought I'd say that about myself, but it's getting more and more true. I used to be so dependent on other's acceptance of me: how I looked, how I held myself in public, my social standing. Now I'm not. I guess i finally realized that you have to get right with yourself and accept who you are first before you worry about someone else. And it's because of that fact that I'm not close with a lot of people I was once close with. I've abandoned people, and now they've all but abandoned me back. I've also realized that quitting cheerleading has permanently burned some bridges. Eventhough it made me happier to do so, you just can't seem to understand that can you? Maybe it's just better that we aren't friends. Quitting was what was best for me, and if you can't understand that, then what we had once wasn't friendship after all. I hate you. There, I said it. I hate everything about you. I used to adore you. Used to even be jealous. Now I realize that you annoy me and you are nothing but a wannabe. That's it. You do things i don't agree with - then you glorify them. I can't have friends like you. I don't like fickle people. I'm loyal and I expect it in return. So loyal in fact, that it was extremely hard to just write that. But I know that noone reads this, so it's not like I'm going to get found out.
***Other randomness***
There's a website under construction. It's gonna be a portfolio/blog/DIY fashion site with tutorials on how to alter and make clothes, bags, etc. Hopefully cool and not too fashion-nerd. I hope. If you have any tutorials or ideas to throw at me, go for it. Who knows, maybe it will take off and I'll be the new ohhmystars or supayana. That'd be great. I'd like to sew for a living this summer and put things up on eBay every week. Mostly so i don't have to get a real job.
2006 is a great year for snowbarding addicts like myself. Last week we had X-games, and coming up we have the Olympics. Could I be anymore excited?!?!? NOPE! I've already made the executive decision to be a loser on friday night and stay home to watch the opening ceremonies from the comfort of my living room on NBC. Sue me. I love this stuff.
I turn 18 in less than a month.
I'm in love with someone I've barely ever talked to. I don't even know his last name. He never talks, he seems very shy. He is an amazing artist though. Fort Mill boys pale in comparison. He has really beautiful hands. Hope that wasn't too weird of an observation to make. I probably just notice that because I want those hands on me. Yeah, Yeah, I'm slutty. Whatever, ohwell. If you want a normal observation, he also has great hair. Anyways, this little "romance" of mine is going nowhere. looks like I'm boyfriendless for another valentines day.
I've never had a boyfriend on Valentine's day. Why is that? My relationships always seem to end before or start after. wtf? Am I allergic to cupid or something? does cupid even know I exist? If he does, he's a slacker. I'm gonna need some of those magic arrows of his soon.
I hope tomorrow is a snow day.
The new leaked Fall Out Boy song is really good. Sounds way different than any of their other stuff. You can tell they all started out in hardcore bands.
Well, that's all for now. I'll try to update this thing more frequently from now on. Writing that out gave me a chance to get those thoughts out of my head. Maybe I'll sleep better tonight because of it.
<3 sorry for all the ranting
You are my lobster.