we are on a break
please exscuse the babbling, its very late and i am very tired
i am trying so hard, and yet i dont think that there is a right or a wrong this time.
i really want him to figure things out, to remember how in love we were, and when he thinks of me he smiles becauase of the tickle fight we had the last time we were together, and doesnt regret that i havent dumped him
we are on a break
this concerns me because i am not exactly sure of the 100% definition.
if im so in love with him, then does that make me the pathetic one who stays in longing for him, while he tries out a few things (not that i think he's "gonna go nuts out there" (its a work thing))--that hardly seems fair, and yet the thought of someone trying to touch me or even kiss me makes me terribly upset, because that is his job. i dont want to go back to the life i had before him either, because i am not very proud of that part of my life, but there isn't much else that i know about.
what about stuff...can I wear my claddaugh ring the way i have worn it for 17 months, i am still in love with him, right? am i "taken"? i dont know
facebook lists us as in a relationship, does that change, does it become "its complicated" or are we "single" fuck facebook, they made living life "its complicated"
my facebook picture is me and him, and so is my desktop.
he has given me jewelery, can i wear that?
i feel so overwhelmed. and the surprising thing is, that when i am not talking to him, but talking to other people, i can actually maintain some semblance of composure. its odd, for me anyways. is it dumb for me to be believing that its all going to get better, that this is just a test of time, and our love is strong enough. if only one person believes in it, will that make it strong enough?
when is the next time that someone will hug me and just let me stay there and hold me for just a little too long to be polite?
is any of this fair to him, if i make him so miserable?
he said that he is having second thoughts...is that good or bad?
do you think that i can run out of tears soon, cause im kind of tired of crying.
i want to believe so bad that this is for the best.
why does it upset me so much not to have an 18 month anniversary?
please if you have any answers to any questions, please please let me know.
i am trying so hard, and yet i dont think that there is a right or a wrong this time.
i really want him to figure things out, to remember how in love we were, and when he thinks of me he smiles becauase of the tickle fight we had the last time we were together, and doesnt regret that i havent dumped him
we are on a break
this concerns me because i am not exactly sure of the 100% definition.
if im so in love with him, then does that make me the pathetic one who stays in longing for him, while he tries out a few things (not that i think he's "gonna go nuts out there" (its a work thing))--that hardly seems fair, and yet the thought of someone trying to touch me or even kiss me makes me terribly upset, because that is his job. i dont want to go back to the life i had before him either, because i am not very proud of that part of my life, but there isn't much else that i know about.
what about stuff...can I wear my claddaugh ring the way i have worn it for 17 months, i am still in love with him, right? am i "taken"? i dont know
facebook lists us as in a relationship, does that change, does it become "its complicated" or are we "single" fuck facebook, they made living life "its complicated"
my facebook picture is me and him, and so is my desktop.
he has given me jewelery, can i wear that?
i feel so overwhelmed. and the surprising thing is, that when i am not talking to him, but talking to other people, i can actually maintain some semblance of composure. its odd, for me anyways. is it dumb for me to be believing that its all going to get better, that this is just a test of time, and our love is strong enough. if only one person believes in it, will that make it strong enough?
when is the next time that someone will hug me and just let me stay there and hold me for just a little too long to be polite?
is any of this fair to him, if i make him so miserable?
he said that he is having second thoughts...is that good or bad?
do you think that i can run out of tears soon, cause im kind of tired of crying.
i want to believe so bad that this is for the best.
why does it upset me so much not to have an 18 month anniversary?
please if you have any answers to any questions, please please let me know.