many of you WONT get this, so don't comment unless you do...
I don't feel good. I feel really bad about myself. I feel that I'm not in control of myself anymore, and thats scary. I'm letting my self fall away to something else *I think we know what* and I don't like it. I want me back. I want my self respect back. Forget everyone else, and what they think, I want to know that I can do it, and im GOING to. It will be long and hard, but I will.