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So I've decided that this crush thing is really not a good thing.
I really can't like him. Everyone was giving us shit today for "flirting".. Making their jokes and comments. I guess maybe we could have been a little.. But w.e.
I don't want to like him. Especially becaue it's torturous that I can't be with him. And even more so that I don't know if he even likes me like that or if he's just being nice.
Which brings me to my next point..
He is the sweetest and nicest guy I've ever met. I can hardly stand it. Maybe I'm easy and that's all it takes for me.. A genuinely really nice guy. But it just pushes me over the edge every time.
He stayed with me last nite so I wouldn't be alone. Then he walked me home cuz I ended up not getting a ride. We had to pass his house to get to mine.
Oh yea and he records music and wants to be a producer. lol
=/ This sucks.
Like everything else.. I'm going to just forget about this. I have to, if not solely for my own peace of mind.
This would be a lot easier of course if I didn't have to see him every day.
But atleast in six months I'll be gone. I'll get to start over and not have to worry about any of the people here for a long long time.
So I just have to survive here until then.
And I will.
I really can't like him. Everyone was giving us shit today for "flirting".. Making their jokes and comments. I guess maybe we could have been a little.. But w.e.
I don't want to like him. Especially becaue it's torturous that I can't be with him. And even more so that I don't know if he even likes me like that or if he's just being nice.
Which brings me to my next point..
He is the sweetest and nicest guy I've ever met. I can hardly stand it. Maybe I'm easy and that's all it takes for me.. A genuinely really nice guy. But it just pushes me over the edge every time.
He stayed with me last nite so I wouldn't be alone. Then he walked me home cuz I ended up not getting a ride. We had to pass his house to get to mine.
Oh yea and he records music and wants to be a producer. lol
=/ This sucks.
Like everything else.. I'm going to just forget about this. I have to, if not solely for my own peace of mind.
This would be a lot easier of course if I didn't have to see him every day.
But atleast in six months I'll be gone. I'll get to start over and not have to worry about any of the people here for a long long time.
So I just have to survive here until then.
And I will.