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So last night was... interesting. lol. I dunno.. I didn't see that coming at all.. It was so completely out of no where.
And a couple of months ago it would have made me so happy.
But now things are different..
And I'm glad. I'm glad I didn't let anything happen. And I'm proud of myself for handling it the way I did.
On another note.. I really miss him. But only recently. And only sometimes.
But hopefully soon it will pass.
And last but not least.. It's official.. I'M MOVING!!!
I've never been so excited to move in my life. I'm finally getting out of here and it's going to be so fantastic.
We're shooting for Dec/Jan.. and we're moving to Philly.
So that means I have 6 months left of this.. before I finally start the next phase of my life. I finally get to start fresh and new. New city, new state, new roommates, new friends, new work.. new everything.
It's going to be so great.. But I'm a little scared at the same time. I'm scared to leave everyone here thats still worth caring about. I'm scared because it's such a huge step. I'm scared to finally start moving forward- even tho I've been waiting so long to start.
I dunno.. I need change. I need everything to be new..
But at the same time, I'm scared of leaving behind what I have now. I'm scared of leaving behind everything I know and just starting over.
Altho that's most of the reason I'm doing this in the first place.
I dunno.. the point is.. I can't wait. This is going to be the longest six months of my life.. but I'm gonna live it up.
We're going to have an amazing summer. Then I plan to start school in september.. and transfer when we move.
I want to have the best times with all my friends here before I leave.
Like Andy for example.. who's leaving tomorrow to go back to school in Georgia for another 3 months. So.. I'm gonna go and get ready to chill with him.
<3
And a couple of months ago it would have made me so happy.
But now things are different..
And I'm glad. I'm glad I didn't let anything happen. And I'm proud of myself for handling it the way I did.
On another note.. I really miss him. But only recently. And only sometimes.
But hopefully soon it will pass.
And last but not least.. It's official.. I'M MOVING!!!
I've never been so excited to move in my life. I'm finally getting out of here and it's going to be so fantastic.
We're shooting for Dec/Jan.. and we're moving to Philly.
So that means I have 6 months left of this.. before I finally start the next phase of my life. I finally get to start fresh and new. New city, new state, new roommates, new friends, new work.. new everything.
It's going to be so great.. But I'm a little scared at the same time. I'm scared to leave everyone here thats still worth caring about. I'm scared because it's such a huge step. I'm scared to finally start moving forward- even tho I've been waiting so long to start.
I dunno.. I need change. I need everything to be new..
But at the same time, I'm scared of leaving behind what I have now. I'm scared of leaving behind everything I know and just starting over.
Altho that's most of the reason I'm doing this in the first place.
I dunno.. the point is.. I can't wait. This is going to be the longest six months of my life.. but I'm gonna live it up.
We're going to have an amazing summer. Then I plan to start school in september.. and transfer when we move.
I want to have the best times with all my friends here before I leave.
Like Andy for example.. who's leaving tomorrow to go back to school in Georgia for another 3 months. So.. I'm gonna go and get ready to chill with him.
<3