jump over the moon kind

[um_fairy]

i couldn't sleep last night...guess i had too much on my mind...or maybe i was just trying to get to sleep so bad that i couldn't actually let my body relax and drift away. and as i lay there, tossing and turning, i wrote up an entire entry or a few of them in my head...i really should keep the computer in my room at night, i'd probably make better use of it at that time. we're back in london...back to the gloominess of this place...i guess it kinda grows on you. anyway, i'll leave with some thoughts from last night.

i want:
the "can't eat, can't sleep" kind
the can't sleep because "reality is better than your dreams" kind
the "i knew it since i met you" kind
the "i wanna grow old and gray with you" kind
the "i can't wait to spend my life learning everything about you" kind

i want THAT kind of love

i DON'T want:
empty promises
lies
pretty words with no true meaning
relationships that end before they begin

...illusion never changed into something real