what are we waiting for
it's been a while since i've had the umph or energy to sit here and type out a whole entry and even now, i promise it won't be too long. lately i'm so tired that i actually feel like going to sleep at like 8 pm and i would too if i didn't have other things to do. school is draining, the step is a haunting obstacle constantly on my mind, something that won't go away until i finally get rid of it...but i can't, until i feel that i can defeat it with only a few scratches.
it seems everything was going right and life just turned completely around...things are in place but misplaced...right but wrong, or wrong...but right? i dunno...guess we'll have to wait and see. all i know is that everyday in this life has a lesson to be learned...and if you miss out on that lesson, you're stuck...repeating the same old mistakes until you finally realize what you're doing wrong. now i understand.
it hurts to a point...because you feel like it's something that you're doing wrong, it's something that you did that you're being punished for...but it's really not. things are working out how they should be...to make it better for you, not as a punishment...it's only until we realize this that we can move on and be happy. it feels like i'm just waiting lately...waiting to be done with the step, waiting to find someone, waiting to start clinicals, always waiting...but waiting for what? what happens after i accomplish all those things? i start waiting for other things? waiting to get into residency, waiting to get married, waiting to have a baby...i guess it's neverending. kinda sucks that we don't realize how short life really is...need to start appreciating moments more, i just can't wait...
"the challenge is in letting yourself be alone until the right one comes along"
it seems everything was going right and life just turned completely around...things are in place but misplaced...right but wrong, or wrong...but right? i dunno...guess we'll have to wait and see. all i know is that everyday in this life has a lesson to be learned...and if you miss out on that lesson, you're stuck...repeating the same old mistakes until you finally realize what you're doing wrong. now i understand.
it hurts to a point...because you feel like it's something that you're doing wrong, it's something that you did that you're being punished for...but it's really not. things are working out how they should be...to make it better for you, not as a punishment...it's only until we realize this that we can move on and be happy. it feels like i'm just waiting lately...waiting to be done with the step, waiting to find someone, waiting to start clinicals, always waiting...but waiting for what? what happens after i accomplish all those things? i start waiting for other things? waiting to get into residency, waiting to get married, waiting to have a baby...i guess it's neverending. kinda sucks that we don't realize how short life really is...need to start appreciating moments more, i just can't wait...
"the challenge is in letting yourself be alone until the right one comes along"