oh, November
The Dir en grey concert is tonight. No, I'm not going. It's too expensive, too expensive, too expensive. Part of me is really sad, although I'm super exhausted. I would probably be more excited and alive if I had been planning on going, but, I'm not. So my body today is just sagging and unhappy and unflattering and lazy. My mind is just sick. Like, I can't concentrate. But can anyone? Stacy is sick and I keep running through things that I could do to help, but I cannot cure sicknesses. I can barely stay awake myself.
To make today better, the only thing I could think of would be to curl up in a big ball of blankets, in total darkness and total quiet, completely free of responsibility, and worry, and sleep. With Stacy, I think she could use some stress relief. In a big bed. She wouldn't even have to know I was there, although I'd like to hear her breathing or something, because lately I've been waking up in my dorm bed and forgetting where I am. I don't like that.
I registered for classes successfully enough, with five classes, and a schedule that enables me to work Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Sunday. I REALLY need to start organizing my money better, because I'm running low and I need to save. My car is acting weird, and it's a little nervewracking. The front left wheel (area) is grinding. It stopped for a day, but was worse than ever yesterday and right as I pulled in got shaky. I have to drive to work to get my schedule Friday, and then drive home - can we make it? I hope so. I just want to lie in my bed at home with Stacy on her laptop and the cats pawing around and Bandit howling downstairs.
Maybe I'll take another nap...
To make today better, the only thing I could think of would be to curl up in a big ball of blankets, in total darkness and total quiet, completely free of responsibility, and worry, and sleep. With Stacy, I think she could use some stress relief. In a big bed. She wouldn't even have to know I was there, although I'd like to hear her breathing or something, because lately I've been waking up in my dorm bed and forgetting where I am. I don't like that.
I registered for classes successfully enough, with five classes, and a schedule that enables me to work Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Sunday. I REALLY need to start organizing my money better, because I'm running low and I need to save. My car is acting weird, and it's a little nervewracking. The front left wheel (area) is grinding. It stopped for a day, but was worse than ever yesterday and right as I pulled in got shaky. I have to drive to work to get my schedule Friday, and then drive home - can we make it? I hope so. I just want to lie in my bed at home with Stacy on her laptop and the cats pawing around and Bandit howling downstairs.
Maybe I'll take another nap...