Keller song/fic question
That OZ meme made me think of this, which I am now obsessed with as it relates to Keller. (Of course, I know in this equation, Keller is Mary Magdalene, making Beecher, I guess, a very flawed JC!, but I digress.)
Are there any fics, other than Rough Trade (lurve!), where Keller is a prostitute. Not a guy who used to be, and is now a conman or another kind of criminal - or heaven forfend, straight (in job terms, of course). But where he is, when he meets Beecher, a working pro?
Anyway, these are the lyrics to "I Don't Know How To Love Him," from Jesus Christ Superstar, and I will never hear the song again and not think of Keller. There's a fic plot bunny in here somewhere, but having not yet finished my Kink challenge, I can't quite chase it...
I don't know how to love him
What to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed
In these past few days
When I've seen myself
I seem like someone else
I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moved me
He's a man, he just a man
And I've had so many men before
In very many ways
He's just one more
Should I bring him down
Should I scream and shout
Should I speak of love
Let my feelings out
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about
Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position
I'm the one who's always been so calm so cool
No lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so
Yet if he said he loved me
I'd be lost, I'd be frightened
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope
I'd turn my head, I'd back away
I wouldn't want to know
He scares me so
I want him so
I love him so
Am about to leave the office but will check back in when I get home - if anyone responds to this madness.
Are there any fics, other than Rough Trade (lurve!), where Keller is a prostitute. Not a guy who used to be, and is now a conman or another kind of criminal - or heaven forfend, straight (in job terms, of course). But where he is, when he meets Beecher, a working pro?
Anyway, these are the lyrics to "I Don't Know How To Love Him," from Jesus Christ Superstar, and I will never hear the song again and not think of Keller. There's a fic plot bunny in here somewhere, but having not yet finished my Kink challenge, I can't quite chase it...
I don't know how to love him
What to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed
In these past few days
When I've seen myself
I seem like someone else
I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moved me
He's a man, he just a man
And I've had so many men before
In very many ways
He's just one more
Should I bring him down
Should I scream and shout
Should I speak of love
Let my feelings out
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about
Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position
I'm the one who's always been so calm so cool
No lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so
Yet if he said he loved me
I'd be lost, I'd be frightened
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope
I'd turn my head, I'd back away
I wouldn't want to know
He scares me so
I want him so
I love him so
Am about to leave the office but will check back in when I get home - if anyone responds to this madness.