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I need to chase the devils of negativity away.
How did I let myself get to this point? I've ignored so much that meant so much to me.
Became my own worst enemy.
No point in regret though, it will only make me dwell on where I screwed up instead of working on making the future better.
I just need to push myself more.
I have amazing friends, those who support me and even those who, for whatever reason, look up to or respect me. I don't mean that in some big-headed way, but some of my friends have let me know what they think of me. It's inspiring. I can't let them down. I won't.
I have a wonderful boyfriend. Even in the relatively short time we've been together, he has stood with me through a lot. He never gives up on me, even when my depression is eating me up inside and making me act entirely unlike who I really am. He is there for me, even helping, where others seem to often just give up. He helps me look at things from another perspective.<3 I think I would of given up on myself if it wasn't for him.
I can't eat much, but I can get enough to survive and I have a nice roof over my head. It feels like home, I don't want to give it up and will fight to keep it ^^; Luckily, and thanks to the help of Munchy, managed to get a new flatmate just in time, just before things got so bad that I couldn't turn back. And having met with him today and talked, I think we are going to get along just fine.
So I am feeling, really quite positive. I will fall asleep tonight, full of hope.
To all who read this, to those who have offered any kind words in the times I was seeing no good or hope in myself, Thank you for believing better in me. You have my love and respect.
How did I let myself get to this point? I've ignored so much that meant so much to me.
Became my own worst enemy.
No point in regret though, it will only make me dwell on where I screwed up instead of working on making the future better.
I just need to push myself more.
I have amazing friends, those who support me and even those who, for whatever reason, look up to or respect me. I don't mean that in some big-headed way, but some of my friends have let me know what they think of me. It's inspiring. I can't let them down. I won't.
I have a wonderful boyfriend. Even in the relatively short time we've been together, he has stood with me through a lot. He never gives up on me, even when my depression is eating me up inside and making me act entirely unlike who I really am. He is there for me, even helping, where others seem to often just give up. He helps me look at things from another perspective.<3 I think I would of given up on myself if it wasn't for him.
I can't eat much, but I can get enough to survive and I have a nice roof over my head. It feels like home, I don't want to give it up and will fight to keep it ^^; Luckily, and thanks to the help of Munchy, managed to get a new flatmate just in time, just before things got so bad that I couldn't turn back. And having met with him today and talked, I think we are going to get along just fine.
So I am feeling, really quite positive. I will fall asleep tonight, full of hope.
To all who read this, to those who have offered any kind words in the times I was seeing no good or hope in myself, Thank you for believing better in me. You have my love and respect.