It's not up to you....
I can't sleep again.
I shouldn't be getting used to not having sleep. :P
Life has a funny way of mixing things up... switching everything around on me.
It's exhausting.
Sometimes it feels like everything is crumbling around me, even though I'm running around desperately trying to glue things back together. No matter how fast I am running around gluing things together, it's just all falling apart too fast for me to fix.
Is it my life that is falling apart or just myself?
There's too much breaking apart in my life right now. I'm not sure how much more I can take before I follow suit.
When I feel like I've lost all my strength, how to I find any more... how do i find the last bit of strength to fight against the current?
My love of art has also been lost somewhere in the flow. This troubles me most of all, as art is such a part of -me-.
I'm starting to feel I may need to take a very drastic step to sort things out.
Follow the example of the phoenix, burn myself into ashes.. and rise again, start anew, start from scratch.
I've a lot of complicated, difficult decisions ahead of me.
Some of them are going to be hard. I've already had times in tears thinking about it and I can imagine there will be a lot of hurt, tears, and struggles before I finally burn out, so that I can start again.
"On the surface simplicity
But the darkest pit in me
It's pagan poetry
Pagan poetry.
......
This time, I'm gonna keep me all to myself."
I shouldn't be getting used to not having sleep. :P
Life has a funny way of mixing things up... switching everything around on me.
It's exhausting.
Sometimes it feels like everything is crumbling around me, even though I'm running around desperately trying to glue things back together. No matter how fast I am running around gluing things together, it's just all falling apart too fast for me to fix.
Is it my life that is falling apart or just myself?
There's too much breaking apart in my life right now. I'm not sure how much more I can take before I follow suit.
When I feel like I've lost all my strength, how to I find any more... how do i find the last bit of strength to fight against the current?
My love of art has also been lost somewhere in the flow. This troubles me most of all, as art is such a part of -me-.
I'm starting to feel I may need to take a very drastic step to sort things out.
Follow the example of the phoenix, burn myself into ashes.. and rise again, start anew, start from scratch.
I've a lot of complicated, difficult decisions ahead of me.
Some of them are going to be hard. I've already had times in tears thinking about it and I can imagine there will be a lot of hurt, tears, and struggles before I finally burn out, so that I can start again.
"On the surface simplicity
But the darkest pit in me
It's pagan poetry
Pagan poetry.
......
This time, I'm gonna keep me all to myself."