I'm becomming ruined :( i need help.
So, I seem to finally be running into the ground. I'm scared and feel I'm going to wind up with nothing.
It starts with my inability to get a job. I just dont know what it is. I can't seem to even land an interview lately. I call them, I send cvs or what not, everything sound really good and hopeful and then... I dont hear any further from them. Lately i don't even get a letter saying anything :P
I am beyond discouraged. I've fallen to the bottom of the well and can't climb out.
Things looked ok for a while back in Feb and Jan when I was sorting out those debts. Slowly everything has come back in, caving in on me all over again.
Yeah I can make some money when I post art auctions.. but I cant really do much of that right now. Most of what I have is being held onto for EF. And what I do sell, is generally to a US audience and while i mean no offense or disrespect (i am thankful for any money people are willing to pay for my art); Living in the UK, the exchange rate just makes the US money hardly anything and right now I just can't generate enough to even pay rent.
I am scraping for pennies. I am totally scared and totally desperate. I'm at my wits end with this.
Its the only thing in my life thats keeping me from being happy. I keep getting so angry and depressed because of the monetary state i am in. I really want a steady job. But ive had so little luck.
On top of this, my rent has increased from £143 to £193 a month and I have to pay that starting the 1st of July, I'm being chased up again for £120 from last years council tax (and I still have to pay £33 a month). I've not been able to pay the £86 for my half of this months gas and electric bill.
And hey me and jamie are also losing are mind with frikkin' bulldog broadband. Been fussing with them for ages. they cant seem to get anything right. not the account they are supposed to be charging, not any addresses or anything and they act like its our fault they cant get the info right. So may be cut off from the internet in 6-7 dayish. Because they couldnt get the info right and are a pain at contact and customer service , we now have a total of over £350 we owe them. And hey seems they told us wed be paying £25 a month but instead have been charging £50?
Whats up with that, have we misunderstood something there? Does anyone else deal with Bulldog?
All in all, this is a desperate cry for help. I know there are some people who said they would if I really felt I needed it. I hate asking at all for help. I really do, I almost feel ill at having to admit I need someone to help me :*(
I cant guarantee how soon I could get a job to pay anyone back. I'll take any donations if anyone is willing, but I will also be happy to talk to some one who would be willing to lend money. Hell i'd even do a contract saying that I will do the job hunting and will pay back in payments when I've got a job.
Im just so pathetically desperate right now. I dont know where to go or what to do.
It starts with my inability to get a job. I just dont know what it is. I can't seem to even land an interview lately. I call them, I send cvs or what not, everything sound really good and hopeful and then... I dont hear any further from them. Lately i don't even get a letter saying anything :P
I am beyond discouraged. I've fallen to the bottom of the well and can't climb out.
Things looked ok for a while back in Feb and Jan when I was sorting out those debts. Slowly everything has come back in, caving in on me all over again.
Yeah I can make some money when I post art auctions.. but I cant really do much of that right now. Most of what I have is being held onto for EF. And what I do sell, is generally to a US audience and while i mean no offense or disrespect (i am thankful for any money people are willing to pay for my art); Living in the UK, the exchange rate just makes the US money hardly anything and right now I just can't generate enough to even pay rent.
I am scraping for pennies. I am totally scared and totally desperate. I'm at my wits end with this.
Its the only thing in my life thats keeping me from being happy. I keep getting so angry and depressed because of the monetary state i am in. I really want a steady job. But ive had so little luck.
On top of this, my rent has increased from £143 to £193 a month and I have to pay that starting the 1st of July, I'm being chased up again for £120 from last years council tax (and I still have to pay £33 a month). I've not been able to pay the £86 for my half of this months gas and electric bill.
And hey me and jamie are also losing are mind with frikkin' bulldog broadband. Been fussing with them for ages. they cant seem to get anything right. not the account they are supposed to be charging, not any addresses or anything and they act like its our fault they cant get the info right. So may be cut off from the internet in 6-7 dayish. Because they couldnt get the info right and are a pain at contact and customer service , we now have a total of over £350 we owe them. And hey seems they told us wed be paying £25 a month but instead have been charging £50?
Whats up with that, have we misunderstood something there? Does anyone else deal with Bulldog?
All in all, this is a desperate cry for help. I know there are some people who said they would if I really felt I needed it. I hate asking at all for help. I really do, I almost feel ill at having to admit I need someone to help me :*(
I cant guarantee how soon I could get a job to pay anyone back. I'll take any donations if anyone is willing, but I will also be happy to talk to some one who would be willing to lend money. Hell i'd even do a contract saying that I will do the job hunting and will pay back in payments when I've got a job.
Im just so pathetically desperate right now. I dont know where to go or what to do.