rather maudling rat chat

[ultra_ellie]

because i have been getting all excited about portsmouth, i have been talking a lot about the rats at work this week, dealing with stupid questions like "do they have names" and "how do i tell them apart". as well as about how long they live which lead on to whether i get upset when they die, and as i do, why do i put myself through it 20 or so times. i struggle to explain the way they give me so much in their relatively short lifes and that i couldnt stop having them now. i dont think how much it hurts when they go, but how much they give me while they are here. i ought to tell them The Little Orange Girl story but i wouldnt get through it without crying like a big baby. i was saying that i want new show babies, and they were like why dont you just go to a pet shop (i kind of forget thats where normal people get pets, its not even an option for me).i was trying to explain about breeders and waiting lists but they just dont get it, must be worse for you guys who are breeders trying to explain it. the idea of waiting months for rats is just beyond them, their idea of a good time is bingo ;)

sorry feeling a bit maudling tonight, Oregon is falling apart in front of my eyes, i have an appointment for her on wednesday