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No one likes to make an idiot out of themselves. Which is why I'm happy I'm able to approach things calmly, when at times when I was younger, maybe I wouldn't have done.
I'm someone who doesn't like to concentrate on the negatives. If ever I can I will always look to turn a negative into a positive.
Even if the positive is just that the way I've thought about things is immature, and I've embarassed myself. Everytime I'm able to identify when I've been stupid, or my approach has been too quick and too intense, I learn a little bit more, and I become a better person who is able to handle things - I take a positive from it.
I think one thing I've struggled with in my life, is perfection. I've always had this thing in my head that I must be the best. Everything must be picture perfect. If I do something I have to do it 100%, I can't let myself down, I have to be this kind of machine like ubermensch. Like some perfect specimen.
Recently I think I've found a happiness and comfortableness in realising and being happy with the fact that I'm not Superman. It's a tough thing to handle. I always want to make people proud, I always want to be proud in myself. Sometimes I have to stop, and realise that I don't have all the answers. Sometimes I think the wrong things. Sometimes I make the wrong decisions. Sometimes I make a dick out of myself.
Is the world going to end because I'm not perfect? Because I have weaknesses? No. In fact those weaknesses make me who I am. Without them I would be cold, uncaring, and just characterless. Sometimes I'm rash or I think too much. If i didn't it would be because I wouldn't care - and that's not me.
So from this, from life, and from my experiences, I now find a smile on my face, hapiness and comfortableness with it all. Life is achieveable. Life is a positive thing, full of opportunity and potential, and I'm glad to be struggling and working at it, and not giving up no matter what.
I'm really glad I've found myself and woken up, and I'm looking forward to the future. I'm looking forward to developing in my life, and being a part of others, and offering them myself and all the beautiful imperfections that come with me.
I'm someone who doesn't like to concentrate on the negatives. If ever I can I will always look to turn a negative into a positive.
Even if the positive is just that the way I've thought about things is immature, and I've embarassed myself. Everytime I'm able to identify when I've been stupid, or my approach has been too quick and too intense, I learn a little bit more, and I become a better person who is able to handle things - I take a positive from it.
I think one thing I've struggled with in my life, is perfection. I've always had this thing in my head that I must be the best. Everything must be picture perfect. If I do something I have to do it 100%, I can't let myself down, I have to be this kind of machine like ubermensch. Like some perfect specimen.
Recently I think I've found a happiness and comfortableness in realising and being happy with the fact that I'm not Superman. It's a tough thing to handle. I always want to make people proud, I always want to be proud in myself. Sometimes I have to stop, and realise that I don't have all the answers. Sometimes I think the wrong things. Sometimes I make the wrong decisions. Sometimes I make a dick out of myself.
Is the world going to end because I'm not perfect? Because I have weaknesses? No. In fact those weaknesses make me who I am. Without them I would be cold, uncaring, and just characterless. Sometimes I'm rash or I think too much. If i didn't it would be because I wouldn't care - and that's not me.
So from this, from life, and from my experiences, I now find a smile on my face, hapiness and comfortableness with it all. Life is achieveable. Life is a positive thing, full of opportunity and potential, and I'm glad to be struggling and working at it, and not giving up no matter what.
I'm really glad I've found myself and woken up, and I'm looking forward to the future. I'm looking forward to developing in my life, and being a part of others, and offering them myself and all the beautiful imperfections that come with me.