Why do I keep stalling?
I've had the opportunity to bring up the necessary conversation, but haven't. I still haven't seen her since last Wednesday when she was sick. We have talked a little bit this week, but I still feel so different. I want to talk to her in person about all this. I feel that is the mature thing to do. But if she keeps dodging me, then I have no choice but to do it by phone. Why are girls so damn confusing to understand. How hard is it to be honest with someone? You like someone, tell them. You don't like someone, tell them. The more open you are with people, the less likely you are to put yourself in a bad situation.
I came to a realization the other day and am not sure which title suits me. There are two types of guys, more or less. The ones who are good and the ones who are anything other than good. Disregarding the other type and focusing on the good ones, they can be broken down into two categories. Good and act good, good but act like an asshole. Assuming I am a good guy, which I truly believe I am, why do I still fail. After high school I began to act like an asshole. I did meet a lot of girls during that time period. But now, I think I've matured and don't act a fool. I just speak my mind and share how I feel. Of course I can still be cocky and confident at times, but that is far from behaving like an asshole. Why do the good guys who don't act like assholes fail with women? Simple, the answer lies with the girls. They don't want some guy who is completely mature, has his act together, knows how to budget his finances, how to treat a woman, etc... They want a guy that has flaws, a guy who they can change and manipulate into doing things they want. Should I go back to acting like the asshole or stay the way I am? If I stay is that my curse? Is that why I am destined to be alone? Because I have all my shit together and that's what repels the women away?
If so, life's a cruel bitch!
I came to a realization the other day and am not sure which title suits me. There are two types of guys, more or less. The ones who are good and the ones who are anything other than good. Disregarding the other type and focusing on the good ones, they can be broken down into two categories. Good and act good, good but act like an asshole. Assuming I am a good guy, which I truly believe I am, why do I still fail. After high school I began to act like an asshole. I did meet a lot of girls during that time period. But now, I think I've matured and don't act a fool. I just speak my mind and share how I feel. Of course I can still be cocky and confident at times, but that is far from behaving like an asshole. Why do the good guys who don't act like assholes fail with women? Simple, the answer lies with the girls. They don't want some guy who is completely mature, has his act together, knows how to budget his finances, how to treat a woman, etc... They want a guy that has flaws, a guy who they can change and manipulate into doing things they want. Should I go back to acting like the asshole or stay the way I am? If I stay is that my curse? Is that why I am destined to be alone? Because I have all my shit together and that's what repels the women away?
If so, life's a cruel bitch!