Jun 17, 2005 07:56
Okay this spiked my intrest early in the morning... I gave haydie back her car key, game, container thing, and a blue jay feather I found. I thought that was pretty fuckin decent ya know giving it to her instead of having someone steal her car or giving her computer virus since I have her IP address saved via AIM. However this is the funniest fuckin thing ever... I mean honestly this is great. Now the first time this was done it was done with dawn. Dawn and Haydie hate me and whatever, but Dawn gives me a chance and talks to me. Haydie waits 3 days and then says corey raped me. Adam wants to keep talking to me despite Haydie's request. Guess who screams rape? You know I find that funny... don't most people that get raped try to do something about it?
Now lets do some math. Haydie gets raped + her staying with me = doesn't make sense now does it... okay lets try something else. Haydie gets raped + she tries to be my friend = whoa this still doesn't make sense. Oh and best of all Haydie gets raped + she loves me and wants to marry me = what the fuck is up with this picture? I mean how could you "love" someone that "raped" you? Now Haydie has sex and isn't a virgin + she uses this to push people away from me = hey this makes sense. Its mean, immature, and just fucked up on so many levels, but hey that makes sense. Now I know I promised karen to pretend she doesn't exsist, but this... no no no... you don't sit there and put me down for no fucking reason and call the woman I'm in love with a whore and expect me not to say something.
Now I'm not doing this JUST because Haydie insulted me and Dawn... welll its part of the reason, but I also do it so Adam and everyone else knows that Haydie is so determined to keep up a bullshit front that she is completely innocent and sweet and does next to nothing wrong. I'm sorry... thats far from the truth. See you want to show me aggression for no reason and insult someone that did nothing to you and still say that you're the more mature one and expect me to say nothing? No no no... I can let sleeping dogs be, but this girl pushed me way to fuckin far.
She screams rape when its to her advantage and I just can't fucking deal with it because it belittles something that I actually experienced. Yet I'm a "lair, bastard, and a cheat". Yeah well atleast I don't fucking bring up shit to get an advantage. I say it because you fuckin push me too far. Now chew on some truth you insensitive bitch.
Okay enough of that fuckin wench. On to stuff about me because hey its my damn journal. Been working my ass off lately. Got over 20 hours in which is the same has people that have been working longer than me usually have... its kinda funny. To top it off I'm only gonna be getting more hours so its all good. I dunno if I'll be sticking with this job, but hey I'm gonna milk it for some cash get some things done like my phone. Save up a few hundred and then go for a higher paying job... I dunno for sure yet. Maybe not. This place is really cool... the manager makes me never want to leave with his random doing things for employees.
I'm getting back all my music one by one and swamped with video games to beat... resident evil is becoming a bitch and a half to beat, but its okay... I'll rape those zombies with my knife... be like "look bitch... I'm rick james. Do something". Well I'm gonna go... got stuff to do... peace.
Its alright... to tell me
What you think... about me
I won't try to argue
Or hold it against you
I know that your leaving
You must have your reasons
The seasons... are calling
The pcitures... are falling down
The steps that I retrace
The sad look on your face
The timing and structure
Did you hear I fucked her
A day late
A buck short
I'm writing the report
I'm losing and failing
When I move I'm flailing now
And it'll happen once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone who understands
Sees throught the master plan
But everybodys gone
And I've been here for too long
And I'll face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
And maybe... I'll see you
At a movie... sneak preview
You'll show up... and walk by
On the arm... of that guy
And I'll smile
And you'll wave
We'll pretend.. its okay
The sherade.. it won't last
When he's gone.. I won't come back
And it'll happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone who understands
Sees throught the master plan
But everybodys gone
And you've been there for too long
And you'll face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
Less than Jake-I guess this is growing up