life is what happens when you are busy making other plans
john lennon could not have said it any better
25 more days left in providence and i'm starting to wonder what the hell i'm doing. part of me is very excited and craving new beginings but the other part is in love perhaps, and also about to leave my close friends and security i have established. providence is where i raised myself. i'm scared that i'm not an ohio girl anymore...hopefully i still am, or can learn to adapt.
i'm sick of my job other than a few good people that i work with. my chef quit..and welcome chef number 4 in a little over a year. he sucks...thank god i won't be with him very long. i work with this lesbian named cc. she's awesome and i love her sober but good lord give this lady a few drinks and its no secert that she is way more into me than i can handle. a few of us from work went out last night for humberto's (my chef who just quit) going away party. between the coke dealing dishwasher who "only has eyes for me" and can "give me whatever i want", my crazy chef who "has thought i was very attractive since his first day" has dreams about me and loves my perfume, and a lesbian with a huge crush on me who tryed to make out with me last night and was all up in my personal space its safe to say it was a very interesting night. a little on the scary side ...or a lot...only good thing, all my drinks were free.
joanna hates me. i really don't know why. once i left a mess in the living room so she avoided me for 3 days. i can't win. she makes me feel like scum no matter what i do or don't do its never good enough for her. she is making me depressed and giving me a complex. i don't know if i should give up or keep trying it just sucks. i'm very glad to be getting away from her she causes me way to much stress for no reason. i always used to think of her as family but she's off the list.
so i met a boy on july 1st. his name is vinny. as soon as i saw him i was like oh great another spanish boy who is gonna end up liking me, i'm not even gonna look at him plus i was not really attracted to him either. i'm sorry to sound like a vain bitch but unfortunately i have a pretty impressive track record to back me up. anyway later that night i got to talking to him a little bit and i loved it cause of the way he looked at me and listened..like there was no where else he's rather be at that moment. still though i was not sold. the next day..my birthday he met up with me and my friends and i got drunk and ended up hooking up with him. the next day i kinda regreted it so though he gave me his number i did not call. he however is best friends with my roommate jenny's bf so he ended up getting my number through them. he called me a bunch of times and i ended up giving in to a date.... now every day that i see him i like him better than the day before..i think i'm really falling hard for him. he makes me so happy. i have never even felt close to the way i feel for him with another guy. i don't know what to do...i'm gonna get my heart broken in about 25 days.
ok i give up...i think i've said enough
25 more days left in providence and i'm starting to wonder what the hell i'm doing. part of me is very excited and craving new beginings but the other part is in love perhaps, and also about to leave my close friends and security i have established. providence is where i raised myself. i'm scared that i'm not an ohio girl anymore...hopefully i still am, or can learn to adapt.
i'm sick of my job other than a few good people that i work with. my chef quit..and welcome chef number 4 in a little over a year. he sucks...thank god i won't be with him very long. i work with this lesbian named cc. she's awesome and i love her sober but good lord give this lady a few drinks and its no secert that she is way more into me than i can handle. a few of us from work went out last night for humberto's (my chef who just quit) going away party. between the coke dealing dishwasher who "only has eyes for me" and can "give me whatever i want", my crazy chef who "has thought i was very attractive since his first day" has dreams about me and loves my perfume, and a lesbian with a huge crush on me who tryed to make out with me last night and was all up in my personal space its safe to say it was a very interesting night. a little on the scary side ...or a lot...only good thing, all my drinks were free.
joanna hates me. i really don't know why. once i left a mess in the living room so she avoided me for 3 days. i can't win. she makes me feel like scum no matter what i do or don't do its never good enough for her. she is making me depressed and giving me a complex. i don't know if i should give up or keep trying it just sucks. i'm very glad to be getting away from her she causes me way to much stress for no reason. i always used to think of her as family but she's off the list.
so i met a boy on july 1st. his name is vinny. as soon as i saw him i was like oh great another spanish boy who is gonna end up liking me, i'm not even gonna look at him plus i was not really attracted to him either. i'm sorry to sound like a vain bitch but unfortunately i have a pretty impressive track record to back me up. anyway later that night i got to talking to him a little bit and i loved it cause of the way he looked at me and listened..like there was no where else he's rather be at that moment. still though i was not sold. the next day..my birthday he met up with me and my friends and i got drunk and ended up hooking up with him. the next day i kinda regreted it so though he gave me his number i did not call. he however is best friends with my roommate jenny's bf so he ended up getting my number through them. he called me a bunch of times and i ended up giving in to a date.... now every day that i see him i like him better than the day before..i think i'm really falling hard for him. he makes me so happy. i have never even felt close to the way i feel for him with another guy. i don't know what to do...i'm gonna get my heart broken in about 25 days.
ok i give up...i think i've said enough