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well yea this is what ive been doing so far.
-went to my room and got my skool binder took out all my letters from the skool year that i could find got my notebook box and put them all in there.in the process i read each one throughly.Jennifer can write the most beautiful letters that can make me cry."i guess clapping because they found each other was the exact same as when i screamed you and gabriel are together".yea that was her.shes great.so then i got mad cus i realized the letter gabriel wrote me about what his definiton of love was, wasnt in there that really pissed me off.im always loosing shit!
-Everything else that happened not really important.i made cookies they were good:]
so here are just some really random things that are on my mind.only click if ur really bored and have nothing better to do.
so yea i want an award."deya u want an award what for?u havent done anything so great and terrific that you'd deserve one"..so yea.do u think theres an award for being lazy and doing absoulutley nothing?i mean there was one on sponge-bob for pattrick that one time.maybe theres one in real life?and would i be lazy enough to get it!ha yea stupid me.im bored..and i cant help it.i think im going to get another cookie and just sit here and get fat!
Speaking of fat good subject:
Do you ever wonder if u got fat[were talking obease fat not just a couple of pounds fat]would people still look at you the same and still care for you and love you just the way you are just like they did when u were skinny.i think about things like that all the damn time.or what if i didnt dress the way i did.would some people still talk to me[cus beleive it or not theres people like that out there]or what if i was in a horrible accident and i lost one of my legs would people still be cool with me or would they never take me/invite me anywhere anymore cus they think id be to much of a hastle? if i went blind would my friends still be there to help out...man it would suck being blind.or if i got overly fat..would gabriel still love me and look at me the exact same way like i was when i was skinny[not that im planning on getting fat.]or would he just forget about me and move onto something new.but wut ive been really thinking about latley is highskool.i mean from wut ive heard and all it isnt all that bad and freshman year is the best and easiest.but im scared.scared to loose some friends and not ever talk to them again i know thats wuts gonna happen but just as i loose friends im going to be gaining them as i go on i suppose.guys.scared of the guys.sounds a little childish??huh?im scared of the guys and feelings im going to get for every single one of them.feelings and what kind of "feelings ill be getting"know what i mean.maybe i shouldnt even be saying that cus of gabriel and all but i know its going to happen and im just saying wuts the truth.hes going to north.aint that a bitch.and i know im sure hes going to find someone way terrificer than me[terrificer is that a word?]no.i dont think im doubting the relationship cus i know it sounds like it it just worrys me and i cant help but feel bad hes going to a different skool than me and this summer isnt even helping any we were supose to spend so much time together but we all fucked up so hes grounded entire summer.gah.ive come to a conclusion lifes a bitch.in the words of simple plan"lifes tough wear a helmet"...i think it was them?but really i get something good in my life just as soon as i get it its going to be taken away.now im souding like a whiner right,i know.sorry.but yea.and my father want to take me to minnosotea and on the way back stop in dallas to stay there to.but i dont even want to go.others would be like deya u dont want to go out of state!noo.actually i dont id rather stay here.in edinburg bored.its better than being all the way over there..and being exaclty the same bored.well who knows it can be somewhat fun i hope.cus i have to go anways my mother is forcing me to so i guess ill be gone a good week.and after that nomore going with my dad anymore.who says so.i do:]somehow that doesnt convince me.my mom doesnt want me spending to many days at home alone.ok this is getting way to long i dont even know if half of you would actually read it all.but yea.so im going now.--deya